ACK!!!!
It was supposed to be a good day, but no, it crashed and burned. It ran along fine until 8th hour when Mrs. Rupert had me talk with her privately about how my negativity was bringing the entire alto section down. How can I bring down a whole entire section if I don't even talk? I find it amazing how she always points the finger at me when something goes wrong. She also said that I have a low self-esteem and I tend to bring myself down. Okay, why the hell would it be her business if I had a low self-esteem? Do I radiate self-esteem issues? I don't think so. No, my self-esteem isn't all that high, but it's higher than a lot of other peoples' and I don't go around spreading my "negativity" to others. I think that she's pointing the finger at me because I'm different from all the other girls in choir. I don't wear Abercrombie and Hollister, sorry I don't have the money to spend or the lack of brain to wear an advertisement. I also don't wear skimpy tops and super tight pants that make my "ghetto ass" stand out like a sore thumb. Just because I'm not as pretty and rich as these other girls doesn't mean that I'm not a girl at all. I still have feelings and I do get hurt when you tell me that something that I never did was my fault. But ahem, there are other things to worry about.
Gavin came over after school. It was fun, we watched a lot of ZIM and I almost fell asleep on him again. If it weren't for the random laughing, I probably would've succeeded with a snore. Then my parents called me downstairs for a random chat to tell me that I need to leave my door open and if Gavin would like to stay for dinner. Well, I kept my door unlocked and not fully open, and he stayed for dinner. Boy, was that a mistake. Not that it was Gavin's fault, it was mine. Apparently I have a "snobby attitude" when I have friends over, but I acted just as I normally did with my parents. I told them about what happened in choir today, and they went off on me like it was my fault and how negative of a person I am. Then I caught my mom staring at Gavin and I found it rude, then I asked her what she was looking at, then my dad says, "After dinner, you're going to kindly take Gavin home." AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! MY LIFE IS RUINED!!! He probably thinks that it's his fault at this point in time, but it isn't. Anyway, so after dinner I dropped Gavin off at Blockbuster where Kevin works, and after that I went to Caputo's to pick up my check and to clear my mind a little bit.
When I got home, my dad gave me this lecture on responsibility. He said that I've been irresponsible and yadda yadda and now I don't get a car that was supposed to be a surprise. Blah, my life is fucked. I feel bad that I had to drop Gavin off by himself and that he had to experience that tension with my family. God, I'm such a screw up, I should probably drown myself in the shower next time I take one. Ugh....
Gavin came over after school. It was fun, we watched a lot of ZIM and I almost fell asleep on him again. If it weren't for the random laughing, I probably would've succeeded with a snore. Then my parents called me downstairs for a random chat to tell me that I need to leave my door open and if Gavin would like to stay for dinner. Well, I kept my door unlocked and not fully open, and he stayed for dinner. Boy, was that a mistake. Not that it was Gavin's fault, it was mine. Apparently I have a "snobby attitude" when I have friends over, but I acted just as I normally did with my parents. I told them about what happened in choir today, and they went off on me like it was my fault and how negative of a person I am. Then I caught my mom staring at Gavin and I found it rude, then I asked her what she was looking at, then my dad says, "After dinner, you're going to kindly take Gavin home." AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! MY LIFE IS RUINED!!! He probably thinks that it's his fault at this point in time, but it isn't. Anyway, so after dinner I dropped Gavin off at Blockbuster where Kevin works, and after that I went to Caputo's to pick up my check and to clear my mind a little bit.
When I got home, my dad gave me this lecture on responsibility. He said that I've been irresponsible and yadda yadda and now I don't get a car that was supposed to be a surprise. Blah, my life is fucked. I feel bad that I had to drop Gavin off by himself and that he had to experience that tension with my family. God, I'm such a screw up, I should probably drown myself in the shower next time I take one. Ugh....