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WOW the stress keeps piling on.
Grandpa had a heart attack today. He is in the hospital. Apparently, one of his kidneys has failed, and the other one is about to go. His doctor wants to do a Heart Cathoder on him, but he is afraid it will put him into Renal shock (kidney failure). I'm not quite sure how that works. I'm just worried. I hate the thought of losing a loved one!
In other news, calc is still ruining my life, but not as much. I'm starting to get a grasp on it. I am definitely not going to fail it, but won't 4.0 it either. I'll end up being somewhere in between. Chem and Geology are going well. I love rocks.
I saw Nate at Bubble Island last night. And, it wasn't awkward. I went up to him and said hi, which I don't know if he would have done. I enjoyed talking with him even for 5 minutes, it has been like 4 or 5 months since I last saw him. I am continuously making an effort to show him I want to be his friend, but I get nothin back. What do I do? Logical reasoning would say "fuck him, who needs him" (at least that's what mom says), but I have forgiven him for everything that has happened on his part, and I have basically groveled at his feet apologizing for my part. I need advice. I think he is assuming that I want to get back with him. Hell no! I mean no offense, but no chance will that happen again. I will always have some sort of love for him, but that doesn't mean I want to jump back into things. It would be grand if he either followed up on what he says, or if he just gets balls and says I want nothing to do with you, go away.
Enough of that gibberish. I completely stopped taking my medication, and I'm proud of myself. I've found that I need to lay off the alcohol, because all that does is drive me into a weird crazy state of mind. Not cool. So, no more drinking myself into oblivion.
Lastly, through all of this, I have been feeling special all because I have a few people in my life who actively show they care :) So thanks Mom, Dad, Sis and family, Grandma, AJ, Steve, Sarah, Jordan, and Guy. Ok maybe not a few. I'm lucky.
Hope you all have a good weekend, and good luck on exams!
Grandpa had a heart attack today. He is in the hospital. Apparently, one of his kidneys has failed, and the other one is about to go. His doctor wants to do a Heart Cathoder on him, but he is afraid it will put him into Renal shock (kidney failure). I'm not quite sure how that works. I'm just worried. I hate the thought of losing a loved one!
In other news, calc is still ruining my life, but not as much. I'm starting to get a grasp on it. I am definitely not going to fail it, but won't 4.0 it either. I'll end up being somewhere in between. Chem and Geology are going well. I love rocks.
I saw Nate at Bubble Island last night. And, it wasn't awkward. I went up to him and said hi, which I don't know if he would have done. I enjoyed talking with him even for 5 minutes, it has been like 4 or 5 months since I last saw him. I am continuously making an effort to show him I want to be his friend, but I get nothin back. What do I do? Logical reasoning would say "fuck him, who needs him" (at least that's what mom says), but I have forgiven him for everything that has happened on his part, and I have basically groveled at his feet apologizing for my part. I need advice. I think he is assuming that I want to get back with him. Hell no! I mean no offense, but no chance will that happen again. I will always have some sort of love for him, but that doesn't mean I want to jump back into things. It would be grand if he either followed up on what he says, or if he just gets balls and says I want nothing to do with you, go away.
Enough of that gibberish. I completely stopped taking my medication, and I'm proud of myself. I've found that I need to lay off the alcohol, because all that does is drive me into a weird crazy state of mind. Not cool. So, no more drinking myself into oblivion.
Lastly, through all of this, I have been feeling special all because I have a few people in my life who actively show they care :) So thanks Mom, Dad, Sis and family, Grandma, AJ, Steve, Sarah, Jordan, and Guy. Ok maybe not a few. I'm lucky.
Hope you all have a good weekend, and good luck on exams!