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I feel like I am at a huge point in my life where so much stuff is happening.
I'm learning to appreciate everything more. Things I see on tv, the music I listen to, the weather, the world in general, my choices, and the people around me have definitely made me have a new look on life.
I'm sick of going through life thinking that is going to end up like the perfect story. It obviously isn't. I've always been that person to constantly worry about what other people think of me. I've never wanted to be hated or disliked. I honestly think that is the reason that I don't love myself. I am so consumed with being loved by others, that it is distorting what is important in my life. It is natural to want to be loved, but I have always worried SO much about what people think of me. I have decided that is no way to live my life.
From now on I'm just going to be me. No more trying to get people to love me, and no more trying to constantly impress people. It will come along.
I have a huge wealth of love that I have just recently discovered. It has always been there, but I haven't taken full advantage of it. My family, it is the most important thing in my life.
My mom...is an amazing person. I am very lucky to learn from someone like her. The love I feel from her is something is unsurpassed by anyone. She is my best friend, and I tell her everything.
My dad is also an amazing person. I am very fortunate to have the perfect image of a man to be my role model. If I can be half the man he is, I will be satisfied. Just by observing him, I feel as if I have learned to be a man and love like one from him.
My sister. Oh my sister. I love her so much. I have definitely learned from her mistakes. Besides that, I know she would fight to the death for our family, as would I. She has been a huge part in teaching me to love myself, and to not care what people think. I wish I could be more like her, because she is beautiful.
My grandma..gotta love her. She has been a huge support system in my life. I feel as if I get most of my personality from her. My grandma is also the kind of person that wants to be loved by everyone, and tries hard to get it. She is so caring and giving, but she doesn't care too much about herself. I love her to death, and would do anything she asked of me.
My nieces. Wow. Whenever I get down, I just look at a picture of them. The gift of life is truly the greatest gift God can give anyone. They are two beautiful little girls, and will grow to be amazing young women. I'm so happy to be an uncle, and I am determined to be there for them throughout their life. I will shield them from any harm, emotional and physical. If anyone ever tried to hurt them, I would cause serious harm to that person, no contest. Point is, Sierra Renee and Liberty Jean are the sunlight in my life, they make me see the beauty of it.
So yeah, thats that, my family is very important to me, I don't know why I've never used this concept to full status before. I've seen people who don't respect their family or aren't close to them, and I realize how sad it really is. Some people don't have a choice, but there are those that do. I was in love with someone who has no respect for his family, and I am so so sorry to ever bring someone like that into mine. I will never again cause my family that hurt because I was desperate for love.
I'm beginning to love myself. Mainly, because I am a good son, a good grandson, a good brother, a good unlce and a good friend. I believe that is the true fulfillment in life. I know now that I will never be alone. And that feeling is awesome :)
I definitely have some changes to make in my life, personal, financial and academic. But, for once I'm not going to worry about it, because there is no point.
I'm better off after everything that has happened, I can honestly say that. We all encounter bad people, it just took me a looong time to accept that. I've learned a lot from it, and I'm happy with the way I am.
And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
I'm learning to appreciate everything more. Things I see on tv, the music I listen to, the weather, the world in general, my choices, and the people around me have definitely made me have a new look on life.
I'm sick of going through life thinking that is going to end up like the perfect story. It obviously isn't. I've always been that person to constantly worry about what other people think of me. I've never wanted to be hated or disliked. I honestly think that is the reason that I don't love myself. I am so consumed with being loved by others, that it is distorting what is important in my life. It is natural to want to be loved, but I have always worried SO much about what people think of me. I have decided that is no way to live my life.
From now on I'm just going to be me. No more trying to get people to love me, and no more trying to constantly impress people. It will come along.
I have a huge wealth of love that I have just recently discovered. It has always been there, but I haven't taken full advantage of it. My family, it is the most important thing in my life.
My mom...is an amazing person. I am very lucky to learn from someone like her. The love I feel from her is something is unsurpassed by anyone. She is my best friend, and I tell her everything.
My dad is also an amazing person. I am very fortunate to have the perfect image of a man to be my role model. If I can be half the man he is, I will be satisfied. Just by observing him, I feel as if I have learned to be a man and love like one from him.
My sister. Oh my sister. I love her so much. I have definitely learned from her mistakes. Besides that, I know she would fight to the death for our family, as would I. She has been a huge part in teaching me to love myself, and to not care what people think. I wish I could be more like her, because she is beautiful.
My grandma..gotta love her. She has been a huge support system in my life. I feel as if I get most of my personality from her. My grandma is also the kind of person that wants to be loved by everyone, and tries hard to get it. She is so caring and giving, but she doesn't care too much about herself. I love her to death, and would do anything she asked of me.
My nieces. Wow. Whenever I get down, I just look at a picture of them. The gift of life is truly the greatest gift God can give anyone. They are two beautiful little girls, and will grow to be amazing young women. I'm so happy to be an uncle, and I am determined to be there for them throughout their life. I will shield them from any harm, emotional and physical. If anyone ever tried to hurt them, I would cause serious harm to that person, no contest. Point is, Sierra Renee and Liberty Jean are the sunlight in my life, they make me see the beauty of it.
So yeah, thats that, my family is very important to me, I don't know why I've never used this concept to full status before. I've seen people who don't respect their family or aren't close to them, and I realize how sad it really is. Some people don't have a choice, but there are those that do. I was in love with someone who has no respect for his family, and I am so so sorry to ever bring someone like that into mine. I will never again cause my family that hurt because I was desperate for love.
I'm beginning to love myself. Mainly, because I am a good son, a good grandson, a good brother, a good unlce and a good friend. I believe that is the true fulfillment in life. I know now that I will never be alone. And that feeling is awesome :)
I definitely have some changes to make in my life, personal, financial and academic. But, for once I'm not going to worry about it, because there is no point.
I'm better off after everything that has happened, I can honestly say that. We all encounter bad people, it just took me a looong time to accept that. I've learned a lot from it, and I'm happy with the way I am.
And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again