Update Update
Dianne is home now thirty hours and things are going okay. Last night she feared i would drop her when we put her to bed, but i did not sense any real danger. Today, home health came by to do another evaluation. She will get physical therapy, YAY, and nurses visits, okay. It is getting difficult for her to maintain good oxygen saturation levels at the flow rates ordered by the hospital; but her flow rate is so much lower than it has been at home that i have not started to worry. She is still very weak and tires easily, but we are hoping she will get stronger..
Today, one of Bob W.'s daughters called to tell us that he has been put in hospice care. He had pneumonia and his body is shutting down, He can no longer eat, and his wife is by his side. My feeling of loss is greater than any i have ever had, but the grieving was done six years ago when i could no longer communicate with him. His journey has been a joyous one, i believe it has also been so (maybe even deeper) during the past six years, and that it will continue to be wondrous in this new phase. I know i miss him more when i slip back into the world of this and that, the world of right and wrong, so i will try harder to avoid being part of that world.
"Make the world go away,
get it off of my shoulder.
Say the things you used to say
to make the world go away"...
Hank Cochrane
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Mood: Both grateful and sad.