There's No Joy in Mudville.
This is one of those entries where I really stretch to find something to talk about.
*As if you really needed me to say it, life has been brutally mundane lately. I guess you could call it the "dog days of summer" if you wanted to. Recently, everything's been repetitious to the point of falling into a rut. The past couple weeks have been nothing special. Fuck around in the house, maybe go for a drive during the day. Then either prepare for a boring night in or head up to Ryan's to hang in the garage with Pete. The latter is always the better option, but even that's getting to be a bit mundane doing the same thing night in, night out. I need to break out of the ordinary pretty soon, because if I fall into a rut, I get depressed. And it's hard to shake depression from me, one of my fatal flaws. Murrrr. I should probably try to do something different tomorrow, just to break the chain.
*It's hard to do that when you're on constant terms with only a few of your friends though. I'm not sure if I've done anything wrong or not, but for some reason, there have been a fair percentage whom don't keep in touch as much as they used to. And I hate to call out my friends because A) it probably won't make matters any better and B) because it may seem like I'm showing them up or that I'm appearing selfish. But I can't help the way I feel, and honestly, isn't that what this LJ is for? .. I just feel like people are drifting away from each other, and from me. Some of my friends who I used to talk to and hang out with damn near everyday I'm lucky to even talk to once a week now. And I have a couple of people who I actually haven't spoken to in months. Again, I haven't done anything wrong as far as I know to make them stop talking to me. But maybe they have better things to do and I should stop being a whiny bitch, which sucks to think about, but may be true. I just miss my friends is all. I miss the way it used to be.
*At least my life is looking to stabilize in the coming weeks though. I was recently "accepted" to Berlin Tech. I had a worse shot at NOT getting accepted. Oh god, I could just imagine how much it would show how much my life sucks if I was rejected from an in-state tech school. But I got the papers in the mail. I'm going to look at the class schedule this weekend and pick out some good time slots. I also have to send in my deposit, which sucks because to do so, I'm going to have to close my account at Woodsville Bank because the deposit is exactly how much I have remaining in that account. That sucks, but what're you gonna do. I also have to find time to take the Acuplacer test before I send my deposit and class schedule back in.
*Also, I'm pretty sure I landed a job. Finally. I had to lower the bar on my standards before someone finally gave me a shot. And that's all I needed. I have an "orientation" on Monday afternoon. What am I doing, you ask? .. Well, like I said, I had to lower my standards before I nailed a job. And a job is all about gaining money, right? Well, I got my shot at everyone's favorite capitalistic consumer whore warehouse, the mother of all conglomerates... Wal*Mart. Yeah, I'm working for The Man now. But money is money, and that's something I need with a new cell phone and college courses, and other expenses. They have me pegged for overnight stock. My shifts shuffle between 9 PM - 7 AM and 10 PM - 8 AM on Thursday through Sunday. I start at 8.20 an hour. At 40 hours a week, that's about $300 a week after taxes. Sounds good to me. And because I work 40 hours a week, I apply for full time status. So I get fringe benefits after x-number of days. Always a plus. This not mentioning the employee discount. It's pretty sweet.
*I don't want this to be a couple month job. I'm going to try to juggle the overnight job and college together and see if it works. If I plan it out accordingly, I'll be able to do it. Take night classes on Monday, whatever on Tuesday and Wednesday, and morning/afternoon classes on Thursday, then I can work Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night. I'll be able to do it, with Thursday being the only day in which I have both school and work on the same day. True, I get no "days off", but I'd want to stay super busy.
*I hate Jessica Simpson. She shoots right to the top of the "Needs a swift kick to the sternum" list. And I know someone who will say "Well, at least she's hot". Ok, she may have been hot in the past, but her supreme lack of intelligence, and the fact she exploits that lack of brains as her ploy, then passes it off in stereotypical ditzy blonde fashion just pisses me off to the point that I don't see her "hotness", and instead see a brainless bimbo bitch who used a stereotype to attain "superstar" status. Unlike some of my pig-headed bretherin known as the male species, I prefer to have a woman act like she has a brain and uses it frequently than someone who acts like they have the experience of a kindergartener. I am boycotting Dukes of Hazzard, the movie, to this effect.
*And closing, drunk people are awesome:
[Bobbo] Hooray for drunk Ryan!
[SSJ_Cloud] aahaqwhahahahahahhaha
[EvilEye] Take your clothes off, Ryan. You can't be drunk and clothed at the same time
[SSJ_Cloud] uim just uin my bocersx right now
..
[SSJ_Cloud] I showed Kristen where I hid the porn on my computer. :(
[EvilEye] Did she like it
[SSJ_Cloud] The one we watched is/was called "winner of Miss Norway.mpeg."
[SSJ_Cloud] Kristen told my friend tim that i had 10.9 gigs,. :(
[Bobbo] That's a lot of porn.
..
[SSJ_Cloud] Best headline eveer: "• Broadcaster's racial comments sadden Alou"
[SSJ_Cloud] He's sadden, lol
[SSJ_Cloud] pussy
*As if you really needed me to say it, life has been brutally mundane lately. I guess you could call it the "dog days of summer" if you wanted to. Recently, everything's been repetitious to the point of falling into a rut. The past couple weeks have been nothing special. Fuck around in the house, maybe go for a drive during the day. Then either prepare for a boring night in or head up to Ryan's to hang in the garage with Pete. The latter is always the better option, but even that's getting to be a bit mundane doing the same thing night in, night out. I need to break out of the ordinary pretty soon, because if I fall into a rut, I get depressed. And it's hard to shake depression from me, one of my fatal flaws. Murrrr. I should probably try to do something different tomorrow, just to break the chain.
*It's hard to do that when you're on constant terms with only a few of your friends though. I'm not sure if I've done anything wrong or not, but for some reason, there have been a fair percentage whom don't keep in touch as much as they used to. And I hate to call out my friends because A) it probably won't make matters any better and B) because it may seem like I'm showing them up or that I'm appearing selfish. But I can't help the way I feel, and honestly, isn't that what this LJ is for? .. I just feel like people are drifting away from each other, and from me. Some of my friends who I used to talk to and hang out with damn near everyday I'm lucky to even talk to once a week now. And I have a couple of people who I actually haven't spoken to in months. Again, I haven't done anything wrong as far as I know to make them stop talking to me. But maybe they have better things to do and I should stop being a whiny bitch, which sucks to think about, but may be true. I just miss my friends is all. I miss the way it used to be.
*At least my life is looking to stabilize in the coming weeks though. I was recently "accepted" to Berlin Tech. I had a worse shot at NOT getting accepted. Oh god, I could just imagine how much it would show how much my life sucks if I was rejected from an in-state tech school. But I got the papers in the mail. I'm going to look at the class schedule this weekend and pick out some good time slots. I also have to send in my deposit, which sucks because to do so, I'm going to have to close my account at Woodsville Bank because the deposit is exactly how much I have remaining in that account. That sucks, but what're you gonna do. I also have to find time to take the Acuplacer test before I send my deposit and class schedule back in.
*Also, I'm pretty sure I landed a job. Finally. I had to lower the bar on my standards before someone finally gave me a shot. And that's all I needed. I have an "orientation" on Monday afternoon. What am I doing, you ask? .. Well, like I said, I had to lower my standards before I nailed a job. And a job is all about gaining money, right? Well, I got my shot at everyone's favorite capitalistic consumer whore warehouse, the mother of all conglomerates... Wal*Mart. Yeah, I'm working for The Man now. But money is money, and that's something I need with a new cell phone and college courses, and other expenses. They have me pegged for overnight stock. My shifts shuffle between 9 PM - 7 AM and 10 PM - 8 AM on Thursday through Sunday. I start at 8.20 an hour. At 40 hours a week, that's about $300 a week after taxes. Sounds good to me. And because I work 40 hours a week, I apply for full time status. So I get fringe benefits after x-number of days. Always a plus. This not mentioning the employee discount. It's pretty sweet.
*I don't want this to be a couple month job. I'm going to try to juggle the overnight job and college together and see if it works. If I plan it out accordingly, I'll be able to do it. Take night classes on Monday, whatever on Tuesday and Wednesday, and morning/afternoon classes on Thursday, then I can work Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night. I'll be able to do it, with Thursday being the only day in which I have both school and work on the same day. True, I get no "days off", but I'd want to stay super busy.
*I hate Jessica Simpson. She shoots right to the top of the "Needs a swift kick to the sternum" list. And I know someone who will say "Well, at least she's hot". Ok, she may have been hot in the past, but her supreme lack of intelligence, and the fact she exploits that lack of brains as her ploy, then passes it off in stereotypical ditzy blonde fashion just pisses me off to the point that I don't see her "hotness", and instead see a brainless bimbo bitch who used a stereotype to attain "superstar" status. Unlike some of my pig-headed bretherin known as the male species, I prefer to have a woman act like she has a brain and uses it frequently than someone who acts like they have the experience of a kindergartener. I am boycotting Dukes of Hazzard, the movie, to this effect.
*And closing, drunk people are awesome:
[Bobbo] Hooray for drunk Ryan!
[SSJ_Cloud] aahaqwhahahahahahhaha
[EvilEye] Take your clothes off, Ryan. You can't be drunk and clothed at the same time
[SSJ_Cloud] uim just uin my bocersx right now
..
[SSJ_Cloud] I showed Kristen where I hid the porn on my computer. :(
[EvilEye] Did she like it
[SSJ_Cloud] The one we watched is/was called "winner of Miss Norway.mpeg."
[SSJ_Cloud] Kristen told my friend tim that i had 10.9 gigs,. :(
[Bobbo] That's a lot of porn.
..
[SSJ_Cloud] Best headline eveer: "• Broadcaster's racial comments sadden Alou"
[SSJ_Cloud] He's sadden, lol
[SSJ_Cloud] pussy