Sad But True
Today I am starting over. I will no longer be held down by anyone else. I am growing up. Sad to say and scary as it is, I am growing up. I don't know why anyone would want to read anybody else's live journal...What's so exciting about other people's lives?? K, well, I guess I'll write something interesting then. I recently broke up with my loser boyfriend. I am now single. I don't know how long it will take me to trust a male again. I don't know if I'll ever let myself be completely honest again. When you think you love somebody, you tell them everything and that is a vulnerability that I don't know if I can give again. I don't even know if any of this is making sense. Point is, I'm 21 and single. Couldn't really ask for much more except for infinate money. LOL...Living back with the parents. I'm not very pleased with it. It's not that I don't love my parents, it's just that I'm so used to being in my own house and having my own space it's hard to come back to one tiny bedroom. I am still working at Daniel's Restaurant. I hate it. I don't like my job at all. I feel like I am worse than the dirt on the floor. My job title is 'Server'. I coulda swore we didn't have classes in this country. LOL. I went to college for a whopping semester. I have a huge fear that I will never do anything with my life. I feel like everyone that is going to college right now is so much better than me...At least they could stick with it. I hate school. I hate the idea of going back to school. Anyway, I am on a strict Metallica diet right now. No other tunes are playing. James and the boys are my remedy. That and a couple shots'll do the trick. I am very glad that Keith has been there for me lately. I haven't been having the best time. I really appreciate all of his advice and always listening to me eventhough I know I must sound so annoying; always rambling on. Again, I come back to why would anyone want to read anyone else's journal?!!?? I think I might be writing some poems again. I haven't written in so long...