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I was going to make a post about what I'm thankful for, since it's that time of year, but then I decided not to. The people who I would mention know who they are, and that's what's important.
I went to my parent's house yesterday and in some weird way, the holiday couldn't have come at a better time. It was nice being surrounded by my family, in a way, it made me forget some of the things that have been in the front of my mind for the past couple weeks. He was in Georgia with his family and I didn't get to talk to him except for the half hour we had before he left to get some work done before his flight.
I'm not home now, I'm somewhere that only a few people would know where to find me. I needed to get out of the city, away from everything for a couple days. I needed to have some silence to clear my head.
He mentioned losing friendships, and I guess I've been thinking about that a lot. I'm sorry it had to happen to him. He's stubborn, though, and I don't know if he'd admit that it hurts like it does. Although, I could be wrong, I guess I shouldn't speak for him.
Someone said we think we're the perfect couple. We're not. I know that. I know we have our faults and we have our share of fights. I guess...that we just keep them to ourselves? Maybe that's why it seems like we think we have something better. I'm not an open person, I don't like talking about my problems. If I talk about them, I try to put a good spin on them.
I suppose that's a product of what happened with my past relationships. I focused on what was going wrong too much and not enough on what went right, and it ended up coming between us. Among other things, of course, but I don't think me worrying about what was going wrong was helping the situation at all.
But anyway. There is no perfect couple. Everyone has their own ticks, their own things that make them happy and things that they consider more important than others. For one person, it's trust that's most important, another might like the sense of security.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I didn't realize how things I said were taken. I'm not sorry I said them, really, because they are things I mean. I guess I'm sorry that a lot of things in my life seemed to spiral out of control, and I don't like that at all. I just want things to be good. For everyone.
I went to my parent's house yesterday and in some weird way, the holiday couldn't have come at a better time. It was nice being surrounded by my family, in a way, it made me forget some of the things that have been in the front of my mind for the past couple weeks. He was in Georgia with his family and I didn't get to talk to him except for the half hour we had before he left to get some work done before his flight.
I'm not home now, I'm somewhere that only a few people would know where to find me. I needed to get out of the city, away from everything for a couple days. I needed to have some silence to clear my head.
He mentioned losing friendships, and I guess I've been thinking about that a lot. I'm sorry it had to happen to him. He's stubborn, though, and I don't know if he'd admit that it hurts like it does. Although, I could be wrong, I guess I shouldn't speak for him.
Someone said we think we're the perfect couple. We're not. I know that. I know we have our faults and we have our share of fights. I guess...that we just keep them to ourselves? Maybe that's why it seems like we think we have something better. I'm not an open person, I don't like talking about my problems. If I talk about them, I try to put a good spin on them.
I suppose that's a product of what happened with my past relationships. I focused on what was going wrong too much and not enough on what went right, and it ended up coming between us. Among other things, of course, but I don't think me worrying about what was going wrong was helping the situation at all.
But anyway. There is no perfect couple. Everyone has their own ticks, their own things that make them happy and things that they consider more important than others. For one person, it's trust that's most important, another might like the sense of security.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I didn't realize how things I said were taken. I'm not sorry I said them, really, because they are things I mean. I guess I'm sorry that a lot of things in my life seemed to spiral out of control, and I don't like that at all. I just want things to be good. For everyone.