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okay, so one of my firends is in europe and it is EATING ME ALIVE. i am INSANE WITH JEALOUSY! its freaking haunting my dreams. im kind of perplexed as to why i feel this way. ive never had any particular desire to go to europe. when he went to chicago and california i wasnt really jealous, so im having a hard time figureing this one out.
the only thing that i can think of is that im getting the "im wasting my life" feeling out of this. i mean, yeah if my rich uncle paid for college and i live at home accruing no bills I would probably have money to galavant around europe as well. it kind of hit me too, i havent been out of this goddamn state in 4 years. four long years of me hitting my brains against a goddman wall. im {-} close to hoping on a plance this weekend just to get the hell out of here.
i guess the college thing is depressing me too. not to be cocky, but i think im smart and i could really do alot for myself. and its not that i didnt have opportunities, its why didnt i take them? why did i insist on going to ai? why didnt i just re-aply to asu? i already went there, all i have to do is fill out a simple form and pay $25.
and then i found one of my old paychecks from ross. gabe and i were talking about how we couldnt believe we lived off our wages. i mean, i made $800/mo. figure, $250 for rent, 50 cell phone, 50 cable, 100 credit card, 40 bus card and then figuring in food and college supplies its amazing we got by.
oh well, im done bitching, i just hope now i wont have crazy dreams about murdering my wordly friend.
the only thing that i can think of is that im getting the "im wasting my life" feeling out of this. i mean, yeah if my rich uncle paid for college and i live at home accruing no bills I would probably have money to galavant around europe as well. it kind of hit me too, i havent been out of this goddamn state in 4 years. four long years of me hitting my brains against a goddman wall. im {-} close to hoping on a plance this weekend just to get the hell out of here.
i guess the college thing is depressing me too. not to be cocky, but i think im smart and i could really do alot for myself. and its not that i didnt have opportunities, its why didnt i take them? why did i insist on going to ai? why didnt i just re-aply to asu? i already went there, all i have to do is fill out a simple form and pay $25.
and then i found one of my old paychecks from ross. gabe and i were talking about how we couldnt believe we lived off our wages. i mean, i made $800/mo. figure, $250 for rent, 50 cell phone, 50 cable, 100 credit card, 40 bus card and then figuring in food and college supplies its amazing we got by.
oh well, im done bitching, i just hope now i wont have crazy dreams about murdering my wordly friend.