hello again
I'm at Elon again to start the secondish half of my freshman year. Where has time gone?
Being home was great in many aspects, however not everything was what I wish it could have been. I enjoyed being home a few days before everyone else came home and got lots of shopping and wrapping and personal time in. The oral surgeon took my wisdom teeth the day nearly everyone came home and I eternally grateful that 1. I was in little pain for the majority of that experience and 2. that there was so many people beyond even my normal friend range who made the effort to check on me in my "recovery" time.
I spent day in and day out for a week with Margot, Danielle and Annelise and saw some other people on the side that week from FC that I was close with in the past. Unfortunately college can do weird things to people, so it was disappointing to get excited to see people and for them to act uninterested in return. Luckily that was not the case with most of those old friends, and I wished that I hadn't only saved the hours after 8pm to talk to them and catch up. My friend Mary who was my best friend for many years surprised me with how much she was still the person I decided to leave behind almost two years ago. We ended up just driving around for about two or three hours just catching up on everything. Mary tried to "surprise" me and took us to 40th street (only Brittany will find that funny). I also enjoyed seeing Katelyn and Becca and grieving over Tila's choice. Hillary also gave me toe socks for Christmas...I didn't know they even still made those. I had a baby Christmas-Hanunnakah-Kwanzaa-Winter Solstice celebration with the people who matter to me and having everyone together again was one of the things I wanted the most for this break.
Christmas was good. Nothing really tops junior year Christmas but I'm never going to complain about getting presents and Jesus's birthday. My sister's kids are getting big and it's weird because they were babies like two weeks ago in my mind. Taite is doing well in all aspects and Mia melts my heart. It irks me that my brother at 28 is still (in my opinion) playing mind games with girls as if he is in high school. By that age, both of my other siblings were married and Kirstin was pregnant. Whatever suits him is fine, but it just proves how much things have changed society wise in less than 10 years. I kind of want to be married and have a kid before I'm 28 and I think a lot of "twenty-somethings" need to suck it up and realize not everyone and everything is going to wait for them to concentrate on figuring out their lives. If my mom could be married and have all of her kids minus me before she finished college, I think it is possible to settle down and continue populating the earth while figuring out your life.
After Christmas, I did many things. I went to/watched approximately 32682 movies, saw Margot every two seconds, did errands, played board games, went to the zoo and ate many donuts. I spent New Years with Danielle and Margot plus Amanda for a few hours. We attempted to fire off a giant super soaker rocket which contained "our hearts' desires" off the beach and failed many times. Now those desires are either: 1. still on the porch to the side of Danielle's house, 2. in Danielle's trash, or 3. being tampered with by the people which I am convinced live at the garbage dump. It wasn't a super eventful night but I am not one to crave eventfullness and there was no other place that I would rather be that evening.
My resolution for this year and from now on is to be more open with everyone. I'm sick of my carefully maintained white lies that exist for no other reason than for me to "protect" other people.
I came back here on the third and will basically be here for nearly three months minus some random traveling I plan on doing. I cried before leaving and cried soon after I arrived but I didn't expect anything less. I started my one class for January on the fourth. It does not look as if can be too difficult concerning it is basically a class on the history of Elon. My class is Monday-Friday for three hours until the 25th. So far I have no capacity to stay focused after an hour and a half but neither does my professor.
It's good to be here again and to be surrounded by good people nearly 24/7. I missed Emily and I missed always having her around for all purposes (the most important of those being retrieval of foodstuffs and entertainment). I have no doubt I am where I am supposed to be. However, the microscopic town of Elon will never be the same or quite as good as home.
Being home was great in many aspects, however not everything was what I wish it could have been. I enjoyed being home a few days before everyone else came home and got lots of shopping and wrapping and personal time in. The oral surgeon took my wisdom teeth the day nearly everyone came home and I eternally grateful that 1. I was in little pain for the majority of that experience and 2. that there was so many people beyond even my normal friend range who made the effort to check on me in my "recovery" time.
I spent day in and day out for a week with Margot, Danielle and Annelise and saw some other people on the side that week from FC that I was close with in the past. Unfortunately college can do weird things to people, so it was disappointing to get excited to see people and for them to act uninterested in return. Luckily that was not the case with most of those old friends, and I wished that I hadn't only saved the hours after 8pm to talk to them and catch up. My friend Mary who was my best friend for many years surprised me with how much she was still the person I decided to leave behind almost two years ago. We ended up just driving around for about two or three hours just catching up on everything. Mary tried to "surprise" me and took us to 40th street (only Brittany will find that funny). I also enjoyed seeing Katelyn and Becca and grieving over Tila's choice. Hillary also gave me toe socks for Christmas...I didn't know they even still made those. I had a baby Christmas-Hanunnakah-Kwanzaa-Winter Solstice celebration with the people who matter to me and having everyone together again was one of the things I wanted the most for this break.
Christmas was good. Nothing really tops junior year Christmas but I'm never going to complain about getting presents and Jesus's birthday. My sister's kids are getting big and it's weird because they were babies like two weeks ago in my mind. Taite is doing well in all aspects and Mia melts my heart. It irks me that my brother at 28 is still (in my opinion) playing mind games with girls as if he is in high school. By that age, both of my other siblings were married and Kirstin was pregnant. Whatever suits him is fine, but it just proves how much things have changed society wise in less than 10 years. I kind of want to be married and have a kid before I'm 28 and I think a lot of "twenty-somethings" need to suck it up and realize not everyone and everything is going to wait for them to concentrate on figuring out their lives. If my mom could be married and have all of her kids minus me before she finished college, I think it is possible to settle down and continue populating the earth while figuring out your life.
After Christmas, I did many things. I went to/watched approximately 32682 movies, saw Margot every two seconds, did errands, played board games, went to the zoo and ate many donuts. I spent New Years with Danielle and Margot plus Amanda for a few hours. We attempted to fire off a giant super soaker rocket which contained "our hearts' desires" off the beach and failed many times. Now those desires are either: 1. still on the porch to the side of Danielle's house, 2. in Danielle's trash, or 3. being tampered with by the people which I am convinced live at the garbage dump. It wasn't a super eventful night but I am not one to crave eventfullness and there was no other place that I would rather be that evening.
My resolution for this year and from now on is to be more open with everyone. I'm sick of my carefully maintained white lies that exist for no other reason than for me to "protect" other people.
I came back here on the third and will basically be here for nearly three months minus some random traveling I plan on doing. I cried before leaving and cried soon after I arrived but I didn't expect anything less. I started my one class for January on the fourth. It does not look as if can be too difficult concerning it is basically a class on the history of Elon. My class is Monday-Friday for three hours until the 25th. So far I have no capacity to stay focused after an hour and a half but neither does my professor.
It's good to be here again and to be surrounded by good people nearly 24/7. I missed Emily and I missed always having her around for all purposes (the most important of those being retrieval of foodstuffs and entertainment). I have no doubt I am where I am supposed to be. However, the microscopic town of Elon will never be the same or quite as good as home.