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its quite amazing how one week, even bringing it down to that one boat ride... it can change your life, change your views on things, how one person.. they can make you want to become something you didnt believe was possible...
i think for so long i have had this set goal.. a set plan even of how my next 3 years were going to be. every detail was constantly being rehearsed in my mind... the places i planned to go. the schools and classes i was to attend.. everything. it was way too detailed and set. yet that one person.. that simple conection, and meeting is making me second guess my plans.. and for so long i had promised myself i would never let a person change what i wanted for myself, never compromise my plans for a what if.. but here i am.. now totally questioning things because of this what if.... if we'd had more time together... how that one week wasnt enough.. and is that really all i will ever have... but not only did he captivate me.. but the island. the outlook on life and time.. was simply amazing. the island definatly took hold of me. even if i never get to go back.. i dont think i will ever be able to forget the feeling and the happiness of the place.
i think for so long i have had this set goal.. a set plan even of how my next 3 years were going to be. every detail was constantly being rehearsed in my mind... the places i planned to go. the schools and classes i was to attend.. everything. it was way too detailed and set. yet that one person.. that simple conection, and meeting is making me second guess my plans.. and for so long i had promised myself i would never let a person change what i wanted for myself, never compromise my plans for a what if.. but here i am.. now totally questioning things because of this what if.... if we'd had more time together... how that one week wasnt enough.. and is that really all i will ever have... but not only did he captivate me.. but the island. the outlook on life and time.. was simply amazing. the island definatly took hold of me. even if i never get to go back.. i dont think i will ever be able to forget the feeling and the happiness of the place.