Back again
Been feeling kind of blah lately. Quitting my current job batteries plus which I've worked at for almost two years now. Working there actually really brought me down. I'm not a very good salesman so my numbers were low. So I often got crap about having bad numbers, which was motivation to make me do better. But it just made me feel bad. Not becoming manager there really brought everything down to. I felt really good there for a moment thinking that I'd be manager then someone else got it. Was quite the downer. So I put my two weeks in before finding another job because I didn't get my time off. The upside of working there was I got a lot of work experience and grew a lot while working there. But there is a damn good reason the return rate is so high.
This is going to sound fucking stupid but I get tired of how repetitive life can be. I know everyone's thought while reading this is "Then fucking change it" but I don't know where to start. I don't like doing chores all the time either, but I'm sure I'll get over that. I'll fucking have to. I'm being childish as of late not wanting to grow up but buh. Its really draining. All this shit sounds really pitiful but its how I've been feeling lately. Can't help how I feel, even if it is like a lazy bum.
Finally moved in with Mandie officially into an apartment in Marysville. Its what I've always wanted. We even got a cute scottish fold cat to boot, her name is Mochi. Things are good in that respect but I now need to start working on myself more. Now that I've gotten with the person I'm going to marry and got some.. other things sorted out. Not much. Need to get a good paying job so we can eventually move out and start paying for a house. Instead of paying someone else for an apartment.
Going to be going to Disney here shortly. With Mandie, her mom, my mom, and I. Mom bought a new car which we'll be taking down there. She got in a car accident and rolled her car. She came out with only a fractured pelvis. Which with how the car looked she came out very lucky. I'm so very grateful. While visiting her in the hospital I thought "What if she had died today?" I couldn't imagine the thought. She's walking around now which is awesome. If there is a higher being, thank you. I think thats it for now. Until another year or so when I have something else to get off my chest.
This is going to sound fucking stupid but I get tired of how repetitive life can be. I know everyone's thought while reading this is "Then fucking change it" but I don't know where to start. I don't like doing chores all the time either, but I'm sure I'll get over that. I'll fucking have to. I'm being childish as of late not wanting to grow up but buh. Its really draining. All this shit sounds really pitiful but its how I've been feeling lately. Can't help how I feel, even if it is like a lazy bum.
Finally moved in with Mandie officially into an apartment in Marysville. Its what I've always wanted. We even got a cute scottish fold cat to boot, her name is Mochi. Things are good in that respect but I now need to start working on myself more. Now that I've gotten with the person I'm going to marry and got some.. other things sorted out. Not much. Need to get a good paying job so we can eventually move out and start paying for a house. Instead of paying someone else for an apartment.
Going to be going to Disney here shortly. With Mandie, her mom, my mom, and I. Mom bought a new car which we'll be taking down there. She got in a car accident and rolled her car. She came out with only a fractured pelvis. Which with how the car looked she came out very lucky. I'm so very grateful. While visiting her in the hospital I thought "What if she had died today?" I couldn't imagine the thought. She's walking around now which is awesome. If there is a higher being, thank you. I think thats it for now. Until another year or so when I have something else to get off my chest.