Knowing better about swimming against the current doesn't make it any easier not to.
I just wanna lay down for a bit and take a break. Its just getting to hard to go on right now...
I lied tonight. I intentionnaly told a few small bold face lies. I don't feel very well about this. But apparently I will darken my Karma to protect someone else. But I wont excuse my actions... no one put a gun to my head... I did it willingly.
All he can say is that he loves her... and all I wanted to do was hold her. Life is so cruel sometimes. I feel for him, I understand his pain... I'm nursing a pain of my own. Silently... to my self. By my self. As always.
I don't wanna be her girlfriend, I don't wanna change my life course for her, I'm not ready to swim towards anyone. I just wanna lay next to her and hold her hand. I accept I can't have that. No one said I had to like it right?
I lied tonight. I intentionnaly told a few small bold face lies. I don't feel very well about this. But apparently I will darken my Karma to protect someone else. But I wont excuse my actions... no one put a gun to my head... I did it willingly.
All he can say is that he loves her... and all I wanted to do was hold her. Life is so cruel sometimes. I feel for him, I understand his pain... I'm nursing a pain of my own. Silently... to my self. By my self. As always.
I don't wanna be her girlfriend, I don't wanna change my life course for her, I'm not ready to swim towards anyone. I just wanna lay next to her and hold her hand. I accept I can't have that. No one said I had to like it right?