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so as my 21st birthday soon approaches, i find myself thinking more and more that if i don't find a job pertaining to music...that i should just give in and look for something else. i realize i should be more persistent with this whole music thing, seeing as how hundreds of thousands of people are looking to get into the business, the chances of me getting a job anytime soon are slim to none. i really hate to give up, because i'm extremely stubborn...but i really need to find something stable to pay the bills with. i have a job right now, but i'll be damned if i'm going to work at a video store till i'm old and grey. i guess i'm still waiting for that one break that "all" people supposedly receive, but i fear if i keep waiting it'll just pass by. now i've tried e-mailing people, going to the studios to fill out applications, and just getting out to clubs and stuff trying to get my name out. the only thing i think i haven't done is sell my body for an opportunity. now as tempting as that sounds, i guess i'd like to make that a last resort. for now at least. i've been reading a lot more lately, and buying books more frequently as well. i used to read every night. it seemed like reading was the only thing to put me to sleep. i can't explain why but in the past few weeks i've bought more than one book pertaining to useless facts about the world and celebrities and sports and stuff. i can't seem to get enough of that shit. random knowledge benefits me in no way, and i keep wasting money on books that are bathroom material at best. who cares that shortest war recorded lasted only 38 minutes? NOBODY! but it seems like the more i read, the more i want i know. i guess the fact that i'm still interested in learning is a good thing, but why couldn't i choose law or something more profitable to be interested in?