shattered

[bob4band]

i am officially disgruntled. it hurts to put so much care and consideration into something, trying to make it better while respecting the spirit of where it began, to have your thoughts thrown out arbitrarily. why did i even bother? more and more i grow disillusioned. is there a point? you say you value change but ignore it. i even made two versions to appease you but in the end it didn't matter. hopefully i don't get myself thrown out in the process of being myself. don't you understand, i researched and collaborated. i looked into the culture and made changes that would only be in line with your mission, but you don't care. your tarot card would be the wheel of fortune, if you always do what you've always done, you will always get the same result. i saw it coming, i should have known, but still i hoped. the truth was spoken "the powers that be don't like change, as much as they pretend to encourage it." i only hope that i can hang on, to myself, my passion, and to my work.

I work carefully not to cut myself on the shards of my shattered dreams.