**contradiction in terms**
why am i updating? no one reads this shit. im bored. i just spent a minute watching bill sleep. he's awesome. im in a good, energetic mood and have nothing to expend my energy on. i just wrote a long email that i'll never send because its dramatic. when will the drama end. i feel very poetic right now yet i have nothing to say. new cell number. new tires. life is good. i want to write a couple people off, but i cant. im no good at that. sadly i wouldnt be missing much if i did write them off. i'd be better off. i need a girlfriend. someone to gossip with. someone to do girl stuff with. boys fart. they burp. they talk about boy things. and as much as i dislike the girly girl, i'd like to be girly with someone. i dont think ive ever had that. dont take that the wrong way. im not begging for sympathy. i feel old and tired. i dont want anymore drama EVER. but im sure it will come soon. because you cant get away from it. the best you can do is not make it for yourself. im off now to play half life like i promised i would. much love.