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[boarhunterstas]

I can't even describe how I feel right now.

I hate at this very moment that I have no idea where my SoftLips is, and how I hate every guy I can think of with the exception of 2. And that goes for every girl I can think of too. With the exception of 2.

And I hate even more that most of this comes from my own confusion or not getting what I want. What I've wanted for 3 years now. Which also comes from confusion.

I hate how you are so oblivious and can't see what is right in front of you. But its ok. I'm still here...for you to rub it in once again.

I hate how you are so cynical and how you won't even listen to what people are saying. How you are in denial.

I hate how you are so self-serving and do things in the convenience of you. Not even regarding how others have gone out of their way for you. Can you even return it?

I hate how you have this image of how you want to be and don't even act on it. Do you care as much as you say you do?

I hate how you forgot about me. About that.

I hate how you are dependent on her.

I hate how I am so confused by you. By what you do. By how you treat me. I hate all of those countless conversations we've all had about you. Every day my opinion changes about you.

I hate that its you.

I hate how there is a smudge on my computer screen.

I hate your annoying sneezes.

I hate how I don't see you more often.

I love how Toby just called me.

I loved first block most of first block today.

I love Jono. He really is great.

I love Caroline. Even if she takes to long to look like a carrot to have a peeing contest with me.

Now I have to call him and call him back. And I will love talking to them.