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I haven't written in here in forever. Sometimes I get huffy or flustered and seriously contemplate running back to this electronic form of venting, but I always get sidetracked. So, after attempting to study and then realizing I don't have the attention span, here goes nothing:
I want my life back. You know, the life that consisted of real friends and real conversations. By no means do I crave routine, but for this on instance, I would like something reliable. I want my nightly phone calls. I want clockwork. Clockwork was nice. I want to know that every time I set my phone down, I'll return to see a missed call from someone I miss. Instead, I usually end my nights restless, yet exhausted, questioning why i'm wasting my parents money on an experience that I can't keep up with emotionally.
fuck.
I want my life back. You know, the life that consisted of real friends and real conversations. By no means do I crave routine, but for this on instance, I would like something reliable. I want my nightly phone calls. I want clockwork. Clockwork was nice. I want to know that every time I set my phone down, I'll return to see a missed call from someone I miss. Instead, I usually end my nights restless, yet exhausted, questioning why i'm wasting my parents money on an experience that I can't keep up with emotionally.
fuck.