Positive.
Today was strange, to say the least. It was a mix of nerves and emotions, and trying to be calm for someone who had no reason to be calm in the first place. It was a day of waiting rooms, and waiting in general. It was silent and awkward and stressful. It was ironically beautiful and incredibly numbing. Days like today re-convince me of the fact that things happen on this crazy, unpredictable, fast-paced earth for reasons that are beyond our imagination and understanding. Not because a god wanted them to happen, not because that specific person deserved to see the walls of a certain doctors office, but because sometimes...life demands for wake-up calls, and reality gives them to us.
I will never understand exactly what "could have" been going through my head today, if in some particular instance I was on the other end of the spectrum. If, for some reason, I wasn't the shoulder being cried on, but instead I was the one dealing with consequences. Life speeds up at times, sometimes too fast for us to deal with. Too fast to control, too fast to cope with. It rushes past us in all it's glory, leaving us with a trail of bad judgement calls and rare moments of clarity.
Today was mine. In the perfectly mug backseat of a toyota, it finally hit me. Life is so much bigger than any of us even understand. It's bigger than the perfect pair of shoes and that tasty little piece of gossip we overheard in the halls before class. It's beyond you, it's beyond us. It's about friends. Real, unconditional, incredible, beautiful, and loving friends. Friends that make early morning runs to the grocery store for you. Friends that genuinely care and invest their time and heart into your friendship.
Until this day, I could only imagine what a day like today would feel like. Now, as I sit here with a mere taste of it on my tongue, I completely worship anyone who has gone through a day like today.
This is going to be a very, very long week.
I will never understand exactly what "could have" been going through my head today, if in some particular instance I was on the other end of the spectrum. If, for some reason, I wasn't the shoulder being cried on, but instead I was the one dealing with consequences. Life speeds up at times, sometimes too fast for us to deal with. Too fast to control, too fast to cope with. It rushes past us in all it's glory, leaving us with a trail of bad judgement calls and rare moments of clarity.
Today was mine. In the perfectly mug backseat of a toyota, it finally hit me. Life is so much bigger than any of us even understand. It's bigger than the perfect pair of shoes and that tasty little piece of gossip we overheard in the halls before class. It's beyond you, it's beyond us. It's about friends. Real, unconditional, incredible, beautiful, and loving friends. Friends that make early morning runs to the grocery store for you. Friends that genuinely care and invest their time and heart into your friendship.
Until this day, I could only imagine what a day like today would feel like. Now, as I sit here with a mere taste of it on my tongue, I completely worship anyone who has gone through a day like today.
This is going to be a very, very long week.