GODDAMNIT
ok so i thought i would cast my live journal aside for a while and focus on my major issues ,,,,, yeah.. like that really happened...
Anywho.. so yeah... ive finally come to the conclusion of one thing .....
I always fall for the straight bois..
lets say "X" is the guy im starting to like... hes a little younger that what my taste buds normally go for.. but thats ok.. the wierd thing about it is,, hes one of those /... your not quite sure if hes gay/bi/straight... type guys... its really sucks....
i just dont wanna fall for him...
i really dont.. im tired of falling for the people who dont want to have anything to do with me...
but yeah... couldnt part with my livejournal...
on the good side of life now i guess you could say..
my mom is changing jobs so now she will actually be able to afford shit.. because they are giving her a 5 percent raise.. and then in october she gets another.. her new job is really kickass because shes gonna be a supervisor to alot of people... and that means that there is always room for growth, which means... TADA more mulah.....
on the bad side of life...
my grandpa just got diagnosed with a brain tumor...
and its really hurting him badly...
my mother told me today that he wont make it thru this..
he didnt know what year it was, where he was.... or who he was..
its really eating me up inside.. and i know i should go see him...
but....
i dont know if i could look at him and not cry..
or worse if he didnt remember who i was....
i know i wouldnt want someone i dont know to be crying because of me...
anywho.. nuff on that.......
im gonna be moving out sooon i think.. me and my coworker are trying to find a place to get .. possibly a 3-4 bedroom somewhere in the vicinity of charlotte.. or matthews... if you know of any place like that.. house... apartment.. that is not too expensive... let me know.. much thanks would be had...
but yeah... so ... blah.. im sitting here at work like i always do.. its 3 in the morning.. and im pretty much done with everything except put out breakfast.. which that in itself takes less that.. ohh... 10 minutes... if im fast :)......
sigh.... why do i always fall for the unavailable/non- male loving sort.....
who knows.
Anywho.. so yeah... ive finally come to the conclusion of one thing .....
I always fall for the straight bois..
lets say "X" is the guy im starting to like... hes a little younger that what my taste buds normally go for.. but thats ok.. the wierd thing about it is,, hes one of those /... your not quite sure if hes gay/bi/straight... type guys... its really sucks....
i just dont wanna fall for him...
i really dont.. im tired of falling for the people who dont want to have anything to do with me...
but yeah... couldnt part with my livejournal...
on the good side of life now i guess you could say..
my mom is changing jobs so now she will actually be able to afford shit.. because they are giving her a 5 percent raise.. and then in october she gets another.. her new job is really kickass because shes gonna be a supervisor to alot of people... and that means that there is always room for growth, which means... TADA more mulah.....
on the bad side of life...
my grandpa just got diagnosed with a brain tumor...
and its really hurting him badly...
my mother told me today that he wont make it thru this..
he didnt know what year it was, where he was.... or who he was..
its really eating me up inside.. and i know i should go see him...
but....
i dont know if i could look at him and not cry..
or worse if he didnt remember who i was....
i know i wouldnt want someone i dont know to be crying because of me...
anywho.. nuff on that.......
im gonna be moving out sooon i think.. me and my coworker are trying to find a place to get .. possibly a 3-4 bedroom somewhere in the vicinity of charlotte.. or matthews... if you know of any place like that.. house... apartment.. that is not too expensive... let me know.. much thanks would be had...
but yeah... so ... blah.. im sitting here at work like i always do.. its 3 in the morning.. and im pretty much done with everything except put out breakfast.. which that in itself takes less that.. ohh... 10 minutes... if im fast :)......
sigh.... why do i always fall for the unavailable/non- male loving sort.....
who knows.