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Oh my. I forgot Evon's name today. A few times, but yeah. I think that damn short term memory loss is finally catching up to me. Heh.
Hung out with the family today. Evon gave me a journal thing yesterday (If I hadn't mentioned it before, I am now) and I wrote in it. Wonderful. It's been a while since I had a journal.
Come to think of it, no one has ever really given me anything that hasn't been a birthday or Christmas present. Go Evon (just incase you're reading this - you know I'm talking to you). You're super cool. :-/ And I'm still sorry for forgetting your name. :-) Forgive me?
Life is finally starting to pick up. Don't know what was so fucked up about me in the first place, but now it doesn't matter because something has been resolved. Something unknown that was causing me grief. However, I shouldn't dwell on it now, because it's over and I'm finally being happy again. I think.
I wrote something in my new handy-dandy journal today. It was about people and how I'm never sure of how they really feel towards me (or other people). One thing I said was something like: "How do you know someone really cares? What if they're just trying to make you feel better about yourself? And if they are, does that mean they care, or that they just want you to be happy? If they want you to be happy, does that also mean they care?"
I felt so complicated today. Oh well. I'm just confused .... a lot. I really don't know what's going on. There's something there, but nothing has been said about it. Only actions taken. Nothing spoken. Nothing.... well.... spoken. Heh.
Anyway, I think I'm gonna try and fix my computer so I can listen to Azure Ray now. G'nite world. You're still beautiful to me.
~Rachel
Hung out with the family today. Evon gave me a journal thing yesterday (If I hadn't mentioned it before, I am now) and I wrote in it. Wonderful. It's been a while since I had a journal.
Come to think of it, no one has ever really given me anything that hasn't been a birthday or Christmas present. Go Evon (just incase you're reading this - you know I'm talking to you). You're super cool. :-/ And I'm still sorry for forgetting your name. :-) Forgive me?
Life is finally starting to pick up. Don't know what was so fucked up about me in the first place, but now it doesn't matter because something has been resolved. Something unknown that was causing me grief. However, I shouldn't dwell on it now, because it's over and I'm finally being happy again. I think.
I wrote something in my new handy-dandy journal today. It was about people and how I'm never sure of how they really feel towards me (or other people). One thing I said was something like: "How do you know someone really cares? What if they're just trying to make you feel better about yourself? And if they are, does that mean they care, or that they just want you to be happy? If they want you to be happy, does that also mean they care?"
I felt so complicated today. Oh well. I'm just confused .... a lot. I really don't know what's going on. There's something there, but nothing has been said about it. Only actions taken. Nothing spoken. Nothing.... well.... spoken. Heh.
Anyway, I think I'm gonna try and fix my computer so I can listen to Azure Ray now. G'nite world. You're still beautiful to me.
~Rachel