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UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
I HATE BOYS. They make live so ridiculously complicated. And yes, I'm bitching about Christian here. I don't think I can handle someone who parties as hard as he does. I always get involved with people who just don't know when to put the bottle down. I get a facebook, because he asked me to, and when I go to check out his pictures what do I see? Him with SOLO cups and bottles of liquor everywhere!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN there are random pictures with him and random skanky white girls and the captions are like "My Future Husband". UGH. I'm not the type of girl to get jealous or angry when girls hang all over a guy I have feeling for, so why did I get a knot in my stomache when I saw them!!!????? And I just kept looking at them!!! Can you tell I like to torture myself???
I have standards god dammit!!!!!!!! I shouldn't lower them just because he is ridiculously good looking and can make me laugh all the time. THIS ISN'T FAIR!!! Why can't I just find a decent guy who doesn't think he needs a drink in his hands to be at a "real" party??!!
So I've made the decision for both of us, we're officially on a break. A break from what ever the hell it is we "are". I don't care how many times he tells me I'm his dream girl, or how many times he tries to call me to apologize for making me upset, or that he wrote me saying he just wants to talk, even I'm yelling at him the whole time. Because he wants to just talk to me again. I don't care I don't care I don't care!!!!!!!! Because I have standards, and I'm not going to become a pushover, desperate, clingy, girl. Because I don't need him dammit!!!!
Right................... : - /
I need some sleep.....Night world.......
I HATE BOYS. They make live so ridiculously complicated. And yes, I'm bitching about Christian here. I don't think I can handle someone who parties as hard as he does. I always get involved with people who just don't know when to put the bottle down. I get a facebook, because he asked me to, and when I go to check out his pictures what do I see? Him with SOLO cups and bottles of liquor everywhere!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN there are random pictures with him and random skanky white girls and the captions are like "My Future Husband". UGH. I'm not the type of girl to get jealous or angry when girls hang all over a guy I have feeling for, so why did I get a knot in my stomache when I saw them!!!????? And I just kept looking at them!!! Can you tell I like to torture myself???
I have standards god dammit!!!!!!!! I shouldn't lower them just because he is ridiculously good looking and can make me laugh all the time. THIS ISN'T FAIR!!! Why can't I just find a decent guy who doesn't think he needs a drink in his hands to be at a "real" party??!!
So I've made the decision for both of us, we're officially on a break. A break from what ever the hell it is we "are". I don't care how many times he tells me I'm his dream girl, or how many times he tries to call me to apologize for making me upset, or that he wrote me saying he just wants to talk, even I'm yelling at him the whole time. Because he wants to just talk to me again. I don't care I don't care I don't care!!!!!!!! Because I have standards, and I'm not going to become a pushover, desperate, clingy, girl. Because I don't need him dammit!!!!
Right................... : - /
I need some sleep.....Night world.......