and its tommorow
I hoped today would be a little easier, and in many ways, it was. I didn't think that I could ever be so impacted by a movie as I was this one. Wow. I think brought rise to a lot of emotions that I really hadn’t been aware of had maybe been too afraid to be aware of. Steve talked in an entry a bit ago about his bubble. I think I really understand that. Maybe more here in Montana. Did you know that there is a bill on the ballot here in MT that will add to the states constitution a ban on gay marriage? 67% of citizens are for it. I have gotten to know the woman running part of the campaign against the bill and have been running radio ads against it on my now 2 weekly shows, I picked up on Sunday night slot.
Today we did an exercise in alpha seminar, kind of like where you have a famous celebrity taped to your forehead and you have to get other people to give you clues as to who you are. Anyway, one of my better friends, krister, his was 'gay' it was not meant as a joke, but...everyone took it that way, he of course figured it our and started talking with a lisp the "gay" voice. I don’t know, most of the time, it wouldn’t really bother me. But today, it just kinda hurt. I sat in my desk for a while after class was over. I felt very heavy. Like in the power of one, when peekay describes the stone birds laying the stone eggs in the bottom off his stomach, it was just kinda heavy.
Not to worry though, it’s just been a lot to deal with, the Laramie project just left me kinda emotional, and a bit raw, sensitive you know. But it’s a good thing I think maybe. The thought that keeps running through my head is "what have I done?" how have I taken any kind of stand at all. And I realize that, really, I haven’t, sometimes I think one needs to take a risk, to be heard, I figured out that I have not taken many risks. Maybe its time that I should.
i just wanted to say how much i admire those that have taken some kind of stand,
goodnight
B.
Today we did an exercise in alpha seminar, kind of like where you have a famous celebrity taped to your forehead and you have to get other people to give you clues as to who you are. Anyway, one of my better friends, krister, his was 'gay' it was not meant as a joke, but...everyone took it that way, he of course figured it our and started talking with a lisp the "gay" voice. I don’t know, most of the time, it wouldn’t really bother me. But today, it just kinda hurt. I sat in my desk for a while after class was over. I felt very heavy. Like in the power of one, when peekay describes the stone birds laying the stone eggs in the bottom off his stomach, it was just kinda heavy.
Not to worry though, it’s just been a lot to deal with, the Laramie project just left me kinda emotional, and a bit raw, sensitive you know. But it’s a good thing I think maybe. The thought that keeps running through my head is "what have I done?" how have I taken any kind of stand at all. And I realize that, really, I haven’t, sometimes I think one needs to take a risk, to be heard, I figured out that I have not taken many risks. Maybe its time that I should.
i just wanted to say how much i admire those that have taken some kind of stand,
goodnight
B.