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So life is a little crazy as of right now.
I went to the doctor to have my cat scans looked at, and first he wanted to look at my sinuses. So he put a scope all the way into my right sinus, and said "ok", then one into my left and the conversation proceeded like this;
"Whoa"
"what?"
"you have a rip roaring sinus infection"
"still?"
"yeah its awful, and it hasnt gone away"
"Would this explain why over the last month I have felt really run down and shitty all the time"
"Yeah, I am surprised that you are not in awful awful pain"
So now I am on three really strong medications that are fucking with me a bit. In the midst of all this I have been really busy with Brighton Park Press stuff, including a photo shoot in which 4 people completely flaked out on me. Tomorrow I go to NEIU to finally register, go to Lula for a job interview, then come home and pack. I have signed a lease on a new apartment, and I am really excited. Its two blocks away from where I live as of now. That last picture that I posted is being framed and being put on my wall. As soon as this medicine stops making me constantly dizzy I have decided that I shall dive into all the reading I wish I had done already. I am kind of embarrassed that I havent read more than I have, I mean how can I consider myself an intelligent person without having the base knowledge of European History, philosophy, etc. Also, I am going to indulge in one of my most favorite subjects, Astronomy/Astrophysics. I will eventually tackle Steven Hawking, literally and figuratively. I need to start using my time wisely. With so much that I want to do, I get disgusted when I think about laying around watching the TV all the time. There is so much that I am interested in, and somehow I'm not really good at anything. I think part of the reason I have been afraid to indulge myself completely in this intellectual world is because with this indulgence comes distance. I have over the last few years felt myself distanced from friends and family as it is, and that wasnt even intellectual, it was me indulging in my general interests. I can only imagine the result of indulging in something as pretentious as academia. I guess I should just focus on it though, and if people are gone, then I dont think I will be that surprised anymore. I'm moving in with Matt and Thomas, and I believe that will be a great environment for me to do these things. I am thinking we will have a small house warming/dinner party in which the three of us will cook for those we love. Jeff, fly in for it. If you will be invited I will let you know within the coming days, I am pretty sure that I am moving in sometime around this Friday, which is great because I would love to be settled by the time school starts. I am busy, and of course not keeping in touch with many as I should, and I apologize for that. On that note, holla at me.
I went to the doctor to have my cat scans looked at, and first he wanted to look at my sinuses. So he put a scope all the way into my right sinus, and said "ok", then one into my left and the conversation proceeded like this;
"Whoa"
"what?"
"you have a rip roaring sinus infection"
"still?"
"yeah its awful, and it hasnt gone away"
"Would this explain why over the last month I have felt really run down and shitty all the time"
"Yeah, I am surprised that you are not in awful awful pain"
So now I am on three really strong medications that are fucking with me a bit. In the midst of all this I have been really busy with Brighton Park Press stuff, including a photo shoot in which 4 people completely flaked out on me. Tomorrow I go to NEIU to finally register, go to Lula for a job interview, then come home and pack. I have signed a lease on a new apartment, and I am really excited. Its two blocks away from where I live as of now. That last picture that I posted is being framed and being put on my wall. As soon as this medicine stops making me constantly dizzy I have decided that I shall dive into all the reading I wish I had done already. I am kind of embarrassed that I havent read more than I have, I mean how can I consider myself an intelligent person without having the base knowledge of European History, philosophy, etc. Also, I am going to indulge in one of my most favorite subjects, Astronomy/Astrophysics. I will eventually tackle Steven Hawking, literally and figuratively. I need to start using my time wisely. With so much that I want to do, I get disgusted when I think about laying around watching the TV all the time. There is so much that I am interested in, and somehow I'm not really good at anything. I think part of the reason I have been afraid to indulge myself completely in this intellectual world is because with this indulgence comes distance. I have over the last few years felt myself distanced from friends and family as it is, and that wasnt even intellectual, it was me indulging in my general interests. I can only imagine the result of indulging in something as pretentious as academia. I guess I should just focus on it though, and if people are gone, then I dont think I will be that surprised anymore. I'm moving in with Matt and Thomas, and I believe that will be a great environment for me to do these things. I am thinking we will have a small house warming/dinner party in which the three of us will cook for those we love. Jeff, fly in for it. If you will be invited I will let you know within the coming days, I am pretty sure that I am moving in sometime around this Friday, which is great because I would love to be settled by the time school starts. I am busy, and of course not keeping in touch with many as I should, and I apologize for that. On that note, holla at me.