never a surprise...
wow, so it's been a real long time since i've updated, so maybe i'll actually take some time and do this.... the date is November 18th.... so.... lets start with school... we had jester tryouts.... sometime ago... me janie and melissa made it.. AWESOME we are doing REALLY well you know being first timers and everything, so that's VERY exciting!.... Then we had flag tryouts for next fall... woot! 2006 Co-Captain. that was exciting too... my grades aren't what they should be... but it is all basically what i can get... i'm okay with getting a few C's every once in a while.... especially if that's the best i can do.... uhmm yeah... Band is going really well... i'm actually starting to get a hold of the french horn, you know, i've played it for like what.. a year, and i'm already a whole lot better than last year, the french horn section, i might add, is small... just anna and me, but we dominate.. lol... i think we by far are the closest section, which is awesome, I was thinking and like i've told anna how much i'm gonna miss her next year, and all the seniors at that, but i don't think it's actually HIT me that omgosh here are the kids i've grown up with my whole life, knowing them because of my sister, and then you actually start getting to be good friends with them.. they leave, i guess it's a lesson that i'm supposed to learn, probably just some pyschopathological journey that i have to go through with letting friends go i suppose... hmph.... as far as friends go, man I'm started to tell who is really there for me, and i think the people who are sifting through are really going to be my friends for a life time, even if we don't talk for a while.... we just pick right up where we left off... so yeah,
I think that maybe I've been needing just a good cry, i don't know how many of you know what i'm talking about, but you know one of those where you just want to sit down, alone, put in your fav CD, dim the lights, and cry... holding your favorite stuffed animal or whatever you deem appropriate.... either that or i'm in need of some SERIOUS shopping/girl time, lol being so busy you don't get a whole lot of that.
New subject.... now that i've gotten that off my chest.. ha.... I've recently started liking this kid from Earlville, in which i'm kinda scared to like... my mom doesn't like him all that much... and i dk... i get mixed signals from him... and it scares me.... so yeah... of course, i still remain true to the one i've liked for years, and prolly will still like forever and ever! but what can you do....
Melissa and Janie are some of the funnest people to be around.... and i REALLY think this jester thing is a really good thing for me... it opens me up a little more.... i love practices when we don't do anything and we just talk, it's nice for a change... eh,
Work has started to slow down a bit, that's always a plus side of winter, you are slow, and it's warm in the store and you get to hear christmas songs and christmas is always a good time of the year, despite whatever gifts are/aren't given out, it's always my favorite time, because snow is gorgeous(even tho it's cold) and the lights and the music and just the spirit that floats from place to place that at some moments you can feel like you can grab of a piece of it out of the air... wow, i love christmas time, It's really weird tho, it's not thanksgiving yet, and i am in full christmas mode.. it's all i think about... scary huh...
we got our class rings in, i really enjoy mine..
you know, as much as my sister and i don't get along, i'm really gonna miss her when she goes to college, i mean seriously... i won't have anyone there to wake me up and whine that she doesn't want to work, and wants me to go for her.... and i'm gonna miss waking up to a BIG bang... and her telling me it's okay she just fell down the stairs, and i'm gonna miss just stupid stuff.... i dk... it's sad... i know she's only 4 hours away... but i think this will make us a lot closer, atleast i'm hoping so, my sister and i don't get a long very often and i kinda wish we did... hmph...
my car had a flat tire yesterday.. it really scared me.... it's all better now, dad fixed it...
as much as i fight with my dad.... i still appreciate the things he does do for me... like last night at 10:30pm, he changed my tired... in the freezing cold, it was nice of him, i suppose i know i can always count on him to be there when i need a big hug... so thats always good...
all i know is that this is a really emotional entry for me... not quite sure why, but i feel that maybe i've written enough, and i don't even know who reads this... so basically this is just for me... but i welcome all comments :)
I think that maybe I've been needing just a good cry, i don't know how many of you know what i'm talking about, but you know one of those where you just want to sit down, alone, put in your fav CD, dim the lights, and cry... holding your favorite stuffed animal or whatever you deem appropriate.... either that or i'm in need of some SERIOUS shopping/girl time, lol being so busy you don't get a whole lot of that.
New subject.... now that i've gotten that off my chest.. ha.... I've recently started liking this kid from Earlville, in which i'm kinda scared to like... my mom doesn't like him all that much... and i dk... i get mixed signals from him... and it scares me.... so yeah... of course, i still remain true to the one i've liked for years, and prolly will still like forever and ever! but what can you do....
Melissa and Janie are some of the funnest people to be around.... and i REALLY think this jester thing is a really good thing for me... it opens me up a little more.... i love practices when we don't do anything and we just talk, it's nice for a change... eh,
Work has started to slow down a bit, that's always a plus side of winter, you are slow, and it's warm in the store and you get to hear christmas songs and christmas is always a good time of the year, despite whatever gifts are/aren't given out, it's always my favorite time, because snow is gorgeous(even tho it's cold) and the lights and the music and just the spirit that floats from place to place that at some moments you can feel like you can grab of a piece of it out of the air... wow, i love christmas time, It's really weird tho, it's not thanksgiving yet, and i am in full christmas mode.. it's all i think about... scary huh...
we got our class rings in, i really enjoy mine..
you know, as much as my sister and i don't get along, i'm really gonna miss her when she goes to college, i mean seriously... i won't have anyone there to wake me up and whine that she doesn't want to work, and wants me to go for her.... and i'm gonna miss waking up to a BIG bang... and her telling me it's okay she just fell down the stairs, and i'm gonna miss just stupid stuff.... i dk... it's sad... i know she's only 4 hours away... but i think this will make us a lot closer, atleast i'm hoping so, my sister and i don't get a long very often and i kinda wish we did... hmph...
my car had a flat tire yesterday.. it really scared me.... it's all better now, dad fixed it...
as much as i fight with my dad.... i still appreciate the things he does do for me... like last night at 10:30pm, he changed my tired... in the freezing cold, it was nice of him, i suppose i know i can always count on him to be there when i need a big hug... so thats always good...
all i know is that this is a really emotional entry for me... not quite sure why, but i feel that maybe i've written enough, and i don't even know who reads this... so basically this is just for me... but i welcome all comments :)