today's thoughts
yeah, none of my friends are willing to help me paint my room. i asked around, and all the ones that said they'd help flake when the time comes. i really don't feel like i even have friends these days. they're down to hang out, but never to actually help out when i need it. it sucks a lot. like, half the time, they only want to see me because i have really good, strong, solid, potent marijuana. usually, the thing is that people change when they take up a drug, but i feel like when i took up pot awhile back, i feel like all my friends changed. everyone that calls me is only actually calling to ask if i have pot. maybe not everybody, but a lot of those people. for instance: "hey, i have a really random question for you." "yeah, what?" "do you happen to know where i could get seeds?" "yeah, actually i have a bunch." she only talked to me to ask about the seeds, and then had to go. fun. absolutely fantastic. i mean, i guess that was all we ever really talked about, but still. i just wish that some of my friends would treat me like their friend and help out if i need it. like, i'm only half way done painting my room, and all i can say is at the rate i'm going, i'm not going to finish my room before i go to santa cruz, so none of my "friends" will see me, only because they refuse to help. at least abby is willing to help, but too bad she's not here to do it. well, she will be tomorrow, so i hope we can get tons of work done. as always, i miss her like crazy, and i know she'll help me paint my room. i hope that we'll be awake, though, to spend some time together. i have to work the next day, the morning shift, but it'll be ok. that's my last day workign at the emeryville store, so yeah. not too long after that, i'll be living with her in santa cruz, and i'll get to see her basically as much as i want!!!