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I stole this quote from Adrienne's profile 'Follow your heart and nothing else.' I think I do a pretty good job at that. I usually say what I feel and do what I want even though it may not be the safest, easiest, most practical or best thing to do. But, if it makes me happy... then everything else is just supposed to go into place, right? Nothing actually ever works that way. At the begining of the week I said some things because it was what was best for me to say. It felt like the right thing to do at the time, but that all changed from Friday night into Saturday afternoon. Those feelings of what was best for me were gone because i was happy and it just felt so right. So here I am again, I went back on my word and im in the same position I was in before I attemped to change things - I do have this feeling that is telling me that things will be different because I said how I felt but im nervous that it will be a never ending cycle of me lecturing because im not getting what I need, but not doing anything about it because im getting just enough attention and good times to stick around. I just hate the feelings of insecurity I get from being let down so often in similar situations. So here i am. Doing the right thing is boring and i would miss doing what feels so right way too much. and so, we'll see what happens. I just hate that I think about it at night before I go to bed... and then just happen to think about it when i wake up in the morning as well... Knowing that those thoughts may not be reciprocated is the shitty part. BUT as soon as i hear that voice... or see that smile everything that seems negative fades away and im happy. I hate it and love it at the same time. Im going to miss him for the next 10 days.

I hate when i have time on my hands to think about things! I never think about things this much during the week!
I love that I can honestly say that I have wonderful friends that will always make me happy and will be there not matter what irrational things i do!Im looking foward to Chinese food and homework tonight with my wifey Sarah Ann.
I love that Mike Sablo and I get closer when hes at school. lol.
And Britt Marcoux is a changing beautiful woman that puts me in crazy moods and is the best shopping buddy in the world.."We have jeans like that, you could replace them" hahahha.

Jenny is silly and got her dates mixed up butt i love that her intentions are wonderful.
ANYONE INTO POETRY READINGS!?!??? LET ME KNOW!!!!

this cat is out.