live through this and you wont look back
so nothing really happened this weekend but i still learned something .. i guess from all the thinking that i do but anyway
memories should be freaking cherished with everything that you have. good and bad. in my personal experience, all of the memories i have contribute to every single aspect about me and my personality. whether it was gymnastics, relationships, friendships, other sports teams, coaches, ma-kee-ya, summer, tigs/lmti, school, parents, relatives, music and everyone i've met along the way .. its all in my memory and a day doesnt go by where i dont think about it all and how its all affected me. sometimes i think about how many people i've lost touch with and just all of the things we used to do together and it gets me really upset. but then i think about how much i learned from that person .. or even if i didnt learn anything at all just the fact that we had good times or even not so much. some people were solely in my life to put another face in my mind but even so i still remember it and thats what i like. remembering it all. and then i think wouldnt it be nice if someone else could remember everything that you do? like if they shared all of your memories then they would understand why you do the things that you do sometimes or why you are the way you are. so when you do open up and share the things that are most important to you and the other person just sits there, or just says "cool" that totally sucks. honestly, its like someone just took their finger and smudged over your perfectly good memory and quite frankly just made that memory not so special anymore. memories make you who you are .. thats all there is to it. so if you're going to share yourself with someone else just make sure they will appreciate it because its like giving a part of your history to someone else.
thats all.