I Refuse To Let This Be Easy
Jesus...
I saw a prompt over at fan_flashworks and it inspired me to write a thing (like it's SUPPOSED TO), but, I got in my own way again. What I ended up writing was long, like 20k kinda long. And it had a ton of dialog and smut in it, and it got all ponderous and burdensome... *sigh*. I ended up rewriting much of it over and over and I'm still not entirely sure that it needs to exist in the first place but after you've spent two weeks fighting with a thing you want it to MATTER, right?. Just editing the damned thing took 8 solid hours. Long story not-so-short, I missed the window to post the stupid thing to the comm. Again. I've belonged to that comm for almost 2 years now and have yet to actually post something on time to a challenge. Talk about failure to launch. I've all but given up on participating there and have decided that it'll just be a prompt trove that I lurk in instead.
Anyway, Burdensome Fic exists (and proves once again how much I hate writing smut) and I am more angry than relieved that it's finished. This is a first for me. Maybe I'm just in an irritated frame of mind... All I know is that I'd rather redraw medical charts all day than reread that thing any time soon. Am I burned out? Is this what burned out feels like? I can't tell o_O
I saw a prompt over at fan_flashworks and it inspired me to write a thing (like it's SUPPOSED TO), but, I got in my own way again. What I ended up writing was long, like 20k kinda long. And it had a ton of dialog and smut in it, and it got all ponderous and burdensome... *sigh*. I ended up rewriting much of it over and over and I'm still not entirely sure that it needs to exist in the first place but after you've spent two weeks fighting with a thing you want it to MATTER, right?. Just editing the damned thing took 8 solid hours. Long story not-so-short, I missed the window to post the stupid thing to the comm. Again. I've belonged to that comm for almost 2 years now and have yet to actually post something on time to a challenge. Talk about failure to launch. I've all but given up on participating there and have decided that it'll just be a prompt trove that I lurk in instead.
Anyway, Burdensome Fic exists (and proves once again how much I hate writing smut) and I am more angry than relieved that it's finished. This is a first for me. Maybe I'm just in an irritated frame of mind... All I know is that I'd rather redraw medical charts all day than reread that thing any time soon. Am I burned out? Is this what burned out feels like? I can't tell o_O