it's nice to know he had it all, thanx for watching as i fall, AND LETTING ME KNOW WE WERE DONE
ok. two song to describe my mood right now.
"Happy Ending"
let's talk this over/it's not like we're dead/was it something i did?/was it something you said?/don't leave me hanging/in a city so dead/held up so high/on such a breakable thread/you were all the things i thought i knew/and i thought we could be/he was everything everything that i wanted/ we were meant to be supposed to be/but we lost it/all of the memories so close to me just fade away/all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending/YOU'VE GOT YOUR DUMB FRIENDS/I KNOW WHAT THEY SAY/THEY TELL YOU I'M DIFFICULT/but so are they/but they DON'T know me/DO THEY EVEN KNOW YOU/all the things you HIDE from me/ALL THE SHIT THAT YOU DO/you were all the things i thought i knew/and i thought we could be/he was everything everything that i wanted/ we were meant to be supposed to be/but we lost it/all of the memories so close to me just fade away/all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending/it's nice to know that you were there/thanks for acting like you cared/and making me feel like i was the only one/it's nice to know we had it all/so thanks for watching as i fall/and letting me know we were done/you were all the things i thought i knew/and i thought we could be/he was everything everything that i wanted/ we were meant to be supposed to be/but we lost it/all of the memories so close to me just fade away/all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
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"Tainted Love"
Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I've lost my lights
I toss and turn I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
You think love is to pray
I'm sorry I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
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usual synopsis of life:
*dumped (best and worst thing ever)
*realized there are people who care about me way more than he ever did (wendy, JACK, stoner)
*stopped fighting with kerri
*started a bad habit
*overcame bad habit
*love is fickle, it goes away, but HERPES is here to say
*decided i hated the song dance inside by the all american rejects
*decided that all the drama in choir is all bases around one fag
*talked about a lot with kerri, feel much better now, still married to kerri
*decided i won't let HIM lie anymore, fuck him
*angel's party
*blinking shiny candy bowls
*lots of soda
*standing down
*concepts
*tim stole pizza and soda
*sucking helium (jack, wendy, corbin, carlton are the coolest people ALIVE)
*scary room with bars and redlight
*jack standing on the memorial and getting pelted with a coke can
*my awesome fall when i got my foot stuck in the straps on my pants
*realized i am so freaking happy right now even though something is missing...but other thank that ROCK ON BITCHES.
it took my up until now to realize how many people i have that care about that i never really noticed before. carlton has been awesome through all this shit and such a great friend. jack has always been there for me, even when it hurt or annoyed him to be, and he let's me be myself, something i'm not used to anymore. i've spent more time with wendy which is something i missed so much. and chelsea sivo has really helped me a lot through all this shit. drama really breeds in choir and it breeds around the same people. up until this year no one knew my name, but all of a sudden everyone has something to say, and i just laugh it. ha ha ha bitches. didn't think i would find it funny do you? "why are you trying to make fun of me? you think you're funny? what the fuck you think your doing to me? you take your turn lashing out at me. i'll have you crying with your dirty ass in front of me!". i think i may have a helium hangover. you guys with me on that one? lol. oh well...g2g. done talking to you people. PEACE OUT.
"Happy Ending"
let's talk this over/it's not like we're dead/was it something i did?/was it something you said?/don't leave me hanging/in a city so dead/held up so high/on such a breakable thread/you were all the things i thought i knew/and i thought we could be/he was everything everything that i wanted/ we were meant to be supposed to be/but we lost it/all of the memories so close to me just fade away/all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending/YOU'VE GOT YOUR DUMB FRIENDS/I KNOW WHAT THEY SAY/THEY TELL YOU I'M DIFFICULT/but so are they/but they DON'T know me/DO THEY EVEN KNOW YOU/all the things you HIDE from me/ALL THE SHIT THAT YOU DO/you were all the things i thought i knew/and i thought we could be/he was everything everything that i wanted/ we were meant to be supposed to be/but we lost it/all of the memories so close to me just fade away/all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending/it's nice to know that you were there/thanks for acting like you cared/and making me feel like i was the only one/it's nice to know we had it all/so thanks for watching as i fall/and letting me know we were done/you were all the things i thought i knew/and i thought we could be/he was everything everything that i wanted/ we were meant to be supposed to be/but we lost it/all of the memories so close to me just fade away/all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending
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"Tainted Love"
Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I've lost my lights
I toss and turn I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
You think love is to pray
I'm sorry I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
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usual synopsis of life:
*dumped (best and worst thing ever)
*realized there are people who care about me way more than he ever did (wendy, JACK, stoner)
*stopped fighting with kerri
*started a bad habit
*overcame bad habit
*love is fickle, it goes away, but HERPES is here to say
*decided i hated the song dance inside by the all american rejects
*decided that all the drama in choir is all bases around one fag
*talked about a lot with kerri, feel much better now, still married to kerri
*decided i won't let HIM lie anymore, fuck him
*angel's party
*blinking shiny candy bowls
*lots of soda
*standing down
*concepts
*tim stole pizza and soda
*sucking helium (jack, wendy, corbin, carlton are the coolest people ALIVE)
*scary room with bars and redlight
*jack standing on the memorial and getting pelted with a coke can
*my awesome fall when i got my foot stuck in the straps on my pants
*realized i am so freaking happy right now even though something is missing...but other thank that ROCK ON BITCHES.
it took my up until now to realize how many people i have that care about that i never really noticed before. carlton has been awesome through all this shit and such a great friend. jack has always been there for me, even when it hurt or annoyed him to be, and he let's me be myself, something i'm not used to anymore. i've spent more time with wendy which is something i missed so much. and chelsea sivo has really helped me a lot through all this shit. drama really breeds in choir and it breeds around the same people. up until this year no one knew my name, but all of a sudden everyone has something to say, and i just laugh it. ha ha ha bitches. didn't think i would find it funny do you? "why are you trying to make fun of me? you think you're funny? what the fuck you think your doing to me? you take your turn lashing out at me. i'll have you crying with your dirty ass in front of me!". i think i may have a helium hangover. you guys with me on that one? lol. oh well...g2g. done talking to you people. PEACE OUT.