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im such a dork. corey was at the show last night. and i havent seen him in like almost two years now so i didnt recognize him. omg, i felt so retarded. grrrr. oh well. it was awesome seeing him after i realized it was him. hahahaha.
this depression medicine is making me really tired all the time. i dont like it. i think im going to try to switch it. although its working rather well. i havent had a crying spell since i started it. i guess i feel more "normal" who knows.
i really need to get off of my ass and try to get my life even more normal. ive noticed ive been getting better. i quit smoking pot. i cut back on the ciggs. i cut back on the drinking. lets see if i cant get my life back on track before i totally crash and burn.
a lot of things have gotten better since my mom has totally let loose and basically will let me do whatever i want now. im making my own decisions for once. its nice.
i picked up writing again. i picked up reading again. i can actually concentrate. thats nice too. either saturday or sometime next weekend we should be signing pictures on an apartment. it scares me. and i think sarahs getting mad at me for never being home on the weekends. maybe i wont go to west palm this weekend. shes getting really upset at me because she really wants to move out. like now. but see, its easy for her. shes not paying for it. i have to pay off my mom. and i have to pay for rent. insurance. cell phone. credit card. its harder for me. and i know i could do it. it just is gonna be hard for like the first 2 or 3 months for me. i dunno. we shall see. maybe it wont be hard. maybe im just freaking myself out. who knows. all i know is i need $150 for two weeks to live off of and everything else can go to bills. and that 150$ is all going towards gas and anything fun like shows and such. so i assume i make around 900 a month. subtract 300 of it for gas and my spending money and i still have 600 for all my bills. and i could prolly cut it back to 200 a month for spending money and have 700 for bills. eh...maybe things will work out fine. never know.
well, im off. i dunno what else to talk about. im rambling. later.
this depression medicine is making me really tired all the time. i dont like it. i think im going to try to switch it. although its working rather well. i havent had a crying spell since i started it. i guess i feel more "normal" who knows.
i really need to get off of my ass and try to get my life even more normal. ive noticed ive been getting better. i quit smoking pot. i cut back on the ciggs. i cut back on the drinking. lets see if i cant get my life back on track before i totally crash and burn.
a lot of things have gotten better since my mom has totally let loose and basically will let me do whatever i want now. im making my own decisions for once. its nice.
i picked up writing again. i picked up reading again. i can actually concentrate. thats nice too. either saturday or sometime next weekend we should be signing pictures on an apartment. it scares me. and i think sarahs getting mad at me for never being home on the weekends. maybe i wont go to west palm this weekend. shes getting really upset at me because she really wants to move out. like now. but see, its easy for her. shes not paying for it. i have to pay off my mom. and i have to pay for rent. insurance. cell phone. credit card. its harder for me. and i know i could do it. it just is gonna be hard for like the first 2 or 3 months for me. i dunno. we shall see. maybe it wont be hard. maybe im just freaking myself out. who knows. all i know is i need $150 for two weeks to live off of and everything else can go to bills. and that 150$ is all going towards gas and anything fun like shows and such. so i assume i make around 900 a month. subtract 300 of it for gas and my spending money and i still have 600 for all my bills. and i could prolly cut it back to 200 a month for spending money and have 700 for bills. eh...maybe things will work out fine. never know.
well, im off. i dunno what else to talk about. im rambling. later.