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UTSA has awarded me absolutely nothing at this point.... i called the scholarship office and they havnt awarded me anything. which absolutely sucks because now mom is pissed and has totally disregarded UTSA as a possibility. which, they are still awarding scholarships, its not like i will NEVER get anything from them, its just a matter of how much i will get. apparently i have to talk to dad about money... the most sensitive subject on earth for him because that is his fucking stability and his life: money. he starts to yell, and belittle, and gets frustrated without explaining. if you dont understand it the way he tells it, your shit outta luck. i hate talking to dad about anything, and i am very pissed that i even have to bring this up now, this is not my territory it is dad's. and dad is very territorial...
i dont know where i want to go right now. i want to go to UT for the medical program now that i know that is what i want to do, but LSU is so awesome and also has a good medical program (but not as good as UT). mom wants me to go to LSU, dad wants me to go to LSU, i want to go to UTSA for the first year or so then UT... its april, why did i have to decide this NOW?????!?!
mothers attitude: i dont want to talk to your father
my attitude: i dont want to talk to my father
this fucks over any plan i have had so far, and i am totally lost on this. kill me?
im better news, hey! its prom this saturday!
i dont know where i want to go right now. i want to go to UT for the medical program now that i know that is what i want to do, but LSU is so awesome and also has a good medical program (but not as good as UT). mom wants me to go to LSU, dad wants me to go to LSU, i want to go to UTSA for the first year or so then UT... its april, why did i have to decide this NOW?????!?!
mothers attitude: i dont want to talk to your father
my attitude: i dont want to talk to my father
this fucks over any plan i have had so far, and i am totally lost on this. kill me?
im better news, hey! its prom this saturday!