Hurry the fuck up!!!
Well, today is December 15th. That means that Jake comes home in 4 days. I really am excited but I wish that he could come home right now. I've waited almost 3 whole months to see him again. I really can't be patient anymore. This week has gone by painfully slow. Our wedding is a week away. I want to be married to Jake so badly. I want time to speed up...NOW! Fuck it's still Friday. Waiting is the hardest part. On top of that I've have a very hard time sleeping the past few nights. I'm so excited. But it's a double-edged sword. The last letter that I got from Jake he was really depressed and very very hard on himself. It was to the point where it was very painful for me to read. I really wish that he wouldn't be so hard in himself, he's a fantastic man and husband to boot. I know that it's very hard for him to be away from everything he's ever known and being away from me is killing him. His words...I'm not being vain. 4 more days, only 4 more days and then I can hold him, kiss him and tell him that everything is and will be okay. Jake, I love you and I will always love you. ♥ No worries love, no worries. We'll be together soon enough.