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[bluvix520]

Damn it. It's only Tuesday morning. I'm totally frickin bumed. I miss Jake so fucking much I can barely put it into words. I hate only being able to see him on the weekends. Hopefully after he graduates he'll be able to come more often. After I talked to him eariler tonight I was so close to just bawling my eyes out it wasn't even funny. I'm actually about to right now. I just think about him and I end up thinking about how much that I miss him. I'm fucking in love with him it's not even funny. He's the light of my life. He's the only person that I can invision myself with for the rest of my life. I know that I sound like a total whine-ass but it's hard. I also know that other couples don't have the oppertunity to see eachother as often as Jake and I do. But I don't know. I just want to be with him more than just two or three days a week. But until by some miracle or pure luck that he is able to come back to salem I'm just going to have to grin and bare not being with him during the weeks. I feel like a shell of a person when I'm not with him. I feel almost in a perpetual depressing funk when I'm not with him or atleast talking to him on whatever.

I'm going to stop being a whine ass. Granted no one but Jake will even look at this but I'm making myself more depressed. I'm kind of tired anyway very "crazy day" woooooohooooo.