i tried to stay positive but the angry voices wouldn't let me...

[bluvenus]

i've been in the worst mood all day.

it stated when, for the first time in a while, my alarm actually woke me up. usually, i wake up about ten minutes before my alarm goes off, allowing me to slowly wake up a bit before hauling my ass out of bed.

then, after doubling up on birth cntrol pills for the second day in a row (i had left them at my place while i was in la for three days) my emotions were all a mess. the emptiness that has slowly been making itself comfortable in my heart returned with a vengeance. i miss him so much right now. anywhoo...so yeah, that made the day suck.

then in my speech class we threw tantrums and beat the shit out of a stack of mats.
i pulled a muscle in my back.
so not only do i hurt, but this is the fourth day in a row that i have not been to the gym and i'm really pissed about it.

and i have a movement project due tomorrow that i have yet to choreograph.
and i can't...cuz i can't move.

and i was booking my flight home and called my mom for help.
she got all pissy at me for no reason and now i'm just uber depressed.

i want to be in la with maggie, mikki, and adia again.
i'm so homesick.
and lovesick.
and pathetic.