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so.
ive had an awesome fucking last couple of days.
really.
i hate it that lacrosse has become the thing that makes me the most mad at my best friends
i hate it that my coach is a dumbass
i hate it that everytime i talk to certain people id rather be blowing my brains out
i hate it that people compete with me over non competitive stuff
i hate it that i lost touch with people that i actually care about
i hate it that people try to steal my friends
i hate it that no matter what i do..certain people still talk to me
i hate it that no matter what anyone does..certain people still follow others around
i hate it that no one tries
i hate it that my friends throw their lives away
i hate it that he broke another promise
i hate it that i cant tell him
i hate it that he still sends me emails wanting me to talk again
i hate it that i want to respond
i hate it that he is still confused
i hate it that everyone says im the best person, but my coach still takes me out
i hate it that other coaches pull me aside and say awesome fucking job, but my coach doesnt think so
i hate it that im supposed to be at nationals, but he didnt send me
i hate it that id be better than most of the people there
i hate it that 934875934857 people i dont know im me all the time
i hate it that of those..maybe 5 are decent
i hate it that i cant do anything without being scared someones going to steal it
i hate it that most people arent even reliable anymore
i hate it that everyone i love falls to pieces
i hate it that everything i touch..falls to pieces even more
i hate it that my car has a mystery dent somehow
i hate it that i cant trust people
i hate it that when i say something thats on my mind, people either react stupidly or tell me that they hate me because im making fun of MYSELF
i hate it that she gets put in even though shes been out for 3 months
i hate it that she eavesdrops in peoples conversations and then says to watch your language
i hate it that i hate most of the people on my team
i hate it that im starting to hate people that i do like talking to
i hate it that people are so inconsistent with their feelings
i hate it that everytime i say something in here anymore its just ranting
i hate it that i have to use this to vent to because my friends will get pissed at me
i hate it that i dont have an outlet anymore
i hate it that hes the most confused kid on the planet
i hate it that tonight was senior night and some of my best friends are leaving me with one complete idiot and the rest are either stupid or assholes
i hate it that i hate all of this shit
i hate it that it has to happen all at one time
i hate it that i want to talk to leslie seriously about some stuff but im not fucking secure enough to
i hate it that im so insecure
i hate it that everyone is so confused as to what they want with their lives
i hate it that everything i do anymore is copied
i hate it that this hate list is so long
i hate it that when people read this, theyre going to think i hate a lot of stuff
i hate it that im always so happy and joking around with everyone and making everyone else happy that when im finally not only a few people know
i hate it that for most people i have to be crying for someone to take me seriously
i hate it that no matter how cool, beautiful, pretty, awesome everyone says i am, the people i like still look past me
i hate it that if i were to take leslies thing seriously, people would suddenly want to talk to me
i hate it that people are fake like that
i hate it that certain people only talk to me because they want in my pants
i hate it that others only talk to me when they are reminded of me being pretty
i hate it that people think im pretty, because then if i say something that goes against it, people bitch at me
i hate it that when i point it out to people they are using me because they think im going to be easy and thats the only reason they talk to me..they refute it and lie to me.
i hate it that i hate stuff
i hate it that i hate just this whole situation
i hate it that theres more comfort in a bed of knives than most people even care to show eachother anymore
i hate it that peoples emotions are so fake now
i hate it that the people i lost touch with are the only real people i know anymore
i hate it that i want a bowl really bad right now
i hate it that i want to down every bottle i have, in hopes of dying of alcohol poisoning
i hate it that ive seriously considered it
i hate it that i let people treat me like shit
i hate it that i still do because im attached to certain people
i hate it that people think im stronger than i really am, so when i do need help no one really thinks so
i hate it that im such a lame person most of the time, no one else sees it though
i hate it that you cant read my mind so youd know everything you needed to
i hate it that you bailed
ive had an awesome fucking last couple of days.
really.
i hate it that lacrosse has become the thing that makes me the most mad at my best friends
i hate it that my coach is a dumbass
i hate it that everytime i talk to certain people id rather be blowing my brains out
i hate it that people compete with me over non competitive stuff
i hate it that i lost touch with people that i actually care about
i hate it that people try to steal my friends
i hate it that no matter what i do..certain people still talk to me
i hate it that no matter what anyone does..certain people still follow others around
i hate it that no one tries
i hate it that my friends throw their lives away
i hate it that he broke another promise
i hate it that i cant tell him
i hate it that he still sends me emails wanting me to talk again
i hate it that i want to respond
i hate it that he is still confused
i hate it that everyone says im the best person, but my coach still takes me out
i hate it that other coaches pull me aside and say awesome fucking job, but my coach doesnt think so
i hate it that im supposed to be at nationals, but he didnt send me
i hate it that id be better than most of the people there
i hate it that 934875934857 people i dont know im me all the time
i hate it that of those..maybe 5 are decent
i hate it that i cant do anything without being scared someones going to steal it
i hate it that most people arent even reliable anymore
i hate it that everyone i love falls to pieces
i hate it that everything i touch..falls to pieces even more
i hate it that my car has a mystery dent somehow
i hate it that i cant trust people
i hate it that when i say something thats on my mind, people either react stupidly or tell me that they hate me because im making fun of MYSELF
i hate it that she gets put in even though shes been out for 3 months
i hate it that she eavesdrops in peoples conversations and then says to watch your language
i hate it that i hate most of the people on my team
i hate it that im starting to hate people that i do like talking to
i hate it that people are so inconsistent with their feelings
i hate it that everytime i say something in here anymore its just ranting
i hate it that i have to use this to vent to because my friends will get pissed at me
i hate it that i dont have an outlet anymore
i hate it that hes the most confused kid on the planet
i hate it that tonight was senior night and some of my best friends are leaving me with one complete idiot and the rest are either stupid or assholes
i hate it that i hate all of this shit
i hate it that it has to happen all at one time
i hate it that i want to talk to leslie seriously about some stuff but im not fucking secure enough to
i hate it that im so insecure
i hate it that everyone is so confused as to what they want with their lives
i hate it that everything i do anymore is copied
i hate it that this hate list is so long
i hate it that when people read this, theyre going to think i hate a lot of stuff
i hate it that im always so happy and joking around with everyone and making everyone else happy that when im finally not only a few people know
i hate it that for most people i have to be crying for someone to take me seriously
i hate it that no matter how cool, beautiful, pretty, awesome everyone says i am, the people i like still look past me
i hate it that if i were to take leslies thing seriously, people would suddenly want to talk to me
i hate it that people are fake like that
i hate it that certain people only talk to me because they want in my pants
i hate it that others only talk to me when they are reminded of me being pretty
i hate it that people think im pretty, because then if i say something that goes against it, people bitch at me
i hate it that when i point it out to people they are using me because they think im going to be easy and thats the only reason they talk to me..they refute it and lie to me.
i hate it that i hate stuff
i hate it that i hate just this whole situation
i hate it that theres more comfort in a bed of knives than most people even care to show eachother anymore
i hate it that peoples emotions are so fake now
i hate it that the people i lost touch with are the only real people i know anymore
i hate it that i want a bowl really bad right now
i hate it that i want to down every bottle i have, in hopes of dying of alcohol poisoning
i hate it that ive seriously considered it
i hate it that i let people treat me like shit
i hate it that i still do because im attached to certain people
i hate it that people think im stronger than i really am, so when i do need help no one really thinks so
i hate it that im such a lame person most of the time, no one else sees it though
i hate it that you cant read my mind so youd know everything you needed to
i hate it that you bailed