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[blustreakediris]

I'm not sure, but something about writting that, and reliving all of those good, and bad memories, made me depressed. Depressed enough to make this: 3/4 cup tequilla, 1/8 cointreau, and 1/8 grand marnier, and a splash of margurita mix.... so.... complete alcohol.Three sips, I'm drunk. Oh..... it burns going down.... but feels good in my viens. I cant sit up straight. I'm swaying back anforth. I watch the ice disolve in the liquid and leave trails of water that stay on the top. I have only one thing on my mind. A girl. MY obsession. I adore, and totally am in love with her. well she's not really a girl... but she says she is... her favorite color is brown but her name is green... a good match if you ask me. the fit quite nicly. wipe me face. take another swig. alright...... I'm already shitfaced. low tolarency yeag.... not eeven lokking at htte screen now. too pretty lootling at the key moving... alright, Im'm fucking drunk now..... most people wont wanna read this, except for matt, hell alaugh, but others will be all like ahhhh why the fuck are you doing drugs! stop drugs srugs are bad! dont do drugd! Hell!!!!!!! the keep me aive, well maybe not for long, my liver and lungs are probly fead, but thats ok! I dont really give a fuck. maybe I do... I should stop smoking... so much at least... like Matt.... at least three time s a day. not good, black lungs...... once a week, maybe once a mothE? htnat sounds ok. waht th e fuck!? I'm typing right now? hagved forgotten! another sip/ a;most gone, dont even feel the burn.but cant sit straight. alright to the peopleo out there. frinknings dab. dont drinkk. NOT DRINKNIN! BAD FOR YOU!.... but damn.... only one frink and I'm fucked up..... this is weird, I usually make about three for myself, but they are uslually make tiwh half margarita mix and then the other stuf...... this is all alciochoal. god aI anca tnt spell. I wonder what'll happen if I acytua;;y insert this as an entry!? as If I canIEnrtven feel my head.
FUCK I:"M DRU NK! holly shit!
last sip!
didn't even feel it.
but i,m shit faceed. dount even rekememrnber how to type. this is wierdyou should try it ut some timne. getttihgng fdrhunks and typeins is hard,. too many keyys toi presssss desoentnst workd write, woohwwoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 lr9ighty! I tryindfgg to read what I had it and it didnt make sence to so I'll mist keep typeing~
I love Margee!
I wantto ohld her and tijust carseese her and ove er an hold you how kuves a fuck about sex~!!!!!!!!!! fyck sex!!!!!
I must wnat to be tiwht her., kjust to hold her ahnd yo have her know that I exsist that alll.... what hte fuck and I typeing!? Oh ,y god Im drunmkn. al9ightyu!
I cant ecewn see the keyyes.
dude when I see theis stotmaomtormorm ill be like whawtha!?RSF?! cause itllt bne aso fucking wieiritd!?!?! !! IHN'lm gonn go wa5tch dome TV!