arrggghh
I am in full melt-down mode. I am totally stressing and freaking out about my class this semester and everything else I have to get done. Mostly I'm freaking out about how much trouble my sinuses are giving me this winter, cuz if I don't feel better by Monday I'm going to have to go to the doctor again and I really don't want to! I'm so tired of being sick!!!!! And I know right now I'm being completely irrational, but I really just wish someone was here that I could just talk to and cry to. Travis went sledding last night down in Linn and I didn't go so I wouldn't get more sick. I really didn't want to be alone last night, but he had already made the plans and wanted to see his fam for a bit too, which I can totally understand. Even if he were here I know he couldn't actually do anything for me, but I just want him here to hold me and tell me everything will be fine. Sometimes you just need to hear it from soneone other than yourself. It's so freaking early in the morning so I can't call my mom or any of my sisters to vent to them. Talking on the phone won't even really suffice. I want to be held and rocked. More importantly, I want this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach to go away that has been there since about 1:30 this morning. I don't know why but I feel so isolated right now. Usually I can feel ok about having my time to myself over the weekend to study, but not lately cuz I feel so tired and sick and stressed out about all of it. And now this morning my stomach hurts...probably b/c I'm so hungry, but at the same time I feel as if I eat something that I may just harf it back up. Oh how I hate upset tummies!!!