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things just arent the same. nothing is the way it used to be. i cant even ask my own mom out to a nice dinner on christmas eve without her telling me "oh mark and i already ate. you were sleeping. sorry."
it was nice of her to wake me up and see if i wanted to eat with them. but no. dont worry about me ill just scavange around my house for my own food that we DONT have. its okay.
this year sucks so bad. i used to love christmas. but now its just like 'who cares'. christmas, or any holiday really, has no meaning to me whatsoever. all you do each holiday is meet up with family. thats just not fun to me. i really dont enjoy spending time with my family, except for my mom. i dont know why and i know its a bad thing to say. but i just really dont care. its boring and ever since my aunt died i have lost alot of interest in doing those things. meh, whatever....
it was nice of her to wake me up and see if i wanted to eat with them. but no. dont worry about me ill just scavange around my house for my own food that we DONT have. its okay.
this year sucks so bad. i used to love christmas. but now its just like 'who cares'. christmas, or any holiday really, has no meaning to me whatsoever. all you do each holiday is meet up with family. thats just not fun to me. i really dont enjoy spending time with my family, except for my mom. i dont know why and i know its a bad thing to say. but i just really dont care. its boring and ever since my aunt died i have lost alot of interest in doing those things. meh, whatever....