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everything is hitting me in the face like a brick lately. one by one. brick after brick.
i'm suddenly too fat to deal with. i didn't realize just how heavy i'm becoming again. i need to do something about that.
i'm ruining all the relationships around me. pulling away from people. pushing others to a distance.
i've stopped seeing certain people. for fear of how it would be if i did see them now. and how'd i'd react or what they'd say or do.
i've stopped caring about almost everything.
i've become more broke than i have been in years.
i've stopped caring about my diet.
i havent written any poems in many many months
i haven't taken any real photos in a while
i dont talk to anyone anymore.
i dont go anywhere anymore
i dont want to go to work
i just want to sleep.
and drink alcohol
i'm not myself anymore.
i dont know who this is. but i dont like her at all
i want myself back.
i'm suddenly too fat to deal with. i didn't realize just how heavy i'm becoming again. i need to do something about that.
i'm ruining all the relationships around me. pulling away from people. pushing others to a distance.
i've stopped seeing certain people. for fear of how it would be if i did see them now. and how'd i'd react or what they'd say or do.
i've stopped caring about almost everything.
i've become more broke than i have been in years.
i've stopped caring about my diet.
i havent written any poems in many many months
i haven't taken any real photos in a while
i dont talk to anyone anymore.
i dont go anywhere anymore
i dont want to go to work
i just want to sleep.
and drink alcohol
i'm not myself anymore.
i dont know who this is. but i dont like her at all
i want myself back.