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Right, so I haven't really spoken on here about something that happened to me yesterday, mostly becasue I really don't know what to say.
Being that I don't really have a best friend that lives here, near me, I have been throwing the idea around of throwing my own shower. Friends have come up with great ideas like having a Halloween themed or Eagles themed shower, which honestly would be great.
I'm due in January and I thought, hey, why not have it in October? It would give me time to get stuff situated, return anything that I didn't like/duplicates and get thank yous out. Not to mention having it in December or January would suck! Weather would be better, calm before the crazy storm of the holidays. . . .all around good right?
No.
Well, my Mother voiced several concerns at my ideas, yesterday she told me really why she was concerned.
With the previous pregnancies I have lost, she thought it was a bad idea to have the shower so early. 'It's not fun returning gifts when the baby dies.'
Now of course I flipped out. I was so hurt and upset that I wanted nothing to do with my parents and I'm still quite upset about it all.
I am fucking pissed off that people want to impose their beliefs on me. 'Don't tell anyone before three months!' 'Don't tell anyone before six months' 'don't have a shower until the baby is born!' 'don't tell people the name!' ' Yeah, I know you want to have a natural birth, but you need to understand that problems can happen.'
Right, here's the deal.
I really, really, really appreciate all the imput. I really appreciate the advice and the stories, but (yes there is always a but) could you all just tone down the scary shit?
I am so hurt at the actions of some. . .and I don't know if I can honestly forgive them, so I just need everyone to understand that I'm overtly emotional right now and I need to not be, I need to stay calm. If you find that taxing, complicated or hard, then don't tell me.
If there is a little voice in your head that says 'maybe I shouldn't tell her this, maybe I shouldn't say it.' Then don't.
Just. . .don't. . .becasue I want to TRY and enjoy being pregnant. I want to enjoy the vomiting and the sickness, the headaches and the tiredness. . .becasue to me. . it's worth it.
I don't know the purpose of this entry. . .I guess I'm really upset and hurt by it all. . .and I feel really vulnerable about it all. . .and I guess I just need support.
blah.
I'll be quiet now.
Being that I don't really have a best friend that lives here, near me, I have been throwing the idea around of throwing my own shower. Friends have come up with great ideas like having a Halloween themed or Eagles themed shower, which honestly would be great.
I'm due in January and I thought, hey, why not have it in October? It would give me time to get stuff situated, return anything that I didn't like/duplicates and get thank yous out. Not to mention having it in December or January would suck! Weather would be better, calm before the crazy storm of the holidays. . . .all around good right?
No.
Well, my Mother voiced several concerns at my ideas, yesterday she told me really why she was concerned.
With the previous pregnancies I have lost, she thought it was a bad idea to have the shower so early. 'It's not fun returning gifts when the baby dies.'
Now of course I flipped out. I was so hurt and upset that I wanted nothing to do with my parents and I'm still quite upset about it all.
I am fucking pissed off that people want to impose their beliefs on me. 'Don't tell anyone before three months!' 'Don't tell anyone before six months' 'don't have a shower until the baby is born!' 'don't tell people the name!' ' Yeah, I know you want to have a natural birth, but you need to understand that problems can happen.'
Right, here's the deal.
I really, really, really appreciate all the imput. I really appreciate the advice and the stories, but (yes there is always a but) could you all just tone down the scary shit?
I am so hurt at the actions of some. . .and I don't know if I can honestly forgive them, so I just need everyone to understand that I'm overtly emotional right now and I need to not be, I need to stay calm. If you find that taxing, complicated or hard, then don't tell me.
If there is a little voice in your head that says 'maybe I shouldn't tell her this, maybe I shouldn't say it.' Then don't.
Just. . .don't. . .becasue I want to TRY and enjoy being pregnant. I want to enjoy the vomiting and the sickness, the headaches and the tiredness. . .becasue to me. . it's worth it.
I don't know the purpose of this entry. . .I guess I'm really upset and hurt by it all. . .and I feel really vulnerable about it all. . .and I guess I just need support.
blah.
I'll be quiet now.