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i hate my life... i hate myself... everything about me is flawed... i just ate like 3 cinamin buns ((mucho calories))... i just cant stop myself... while im eating i dont even think about it... i just eat and eat and eat... and then after i get all depressed... cause i know that any food that enters my body is aweful... i hit 101.5... THATZ DISGUSTING!!!... i feel terrible in my own body... and if i cant even accept myself then how is someone else ever going to except me... how is anyone else going to love me... i think one of the reasons why im so terrible at relationships is cause of my trust issues... trust and dustin... when i start liking someone i get so caught up in the little emotion that i tweak out and either avoid the person completely or i just get like *omg i need them*... and then when they like me back i dont believe it... i dont believe that anyone could like me... and then people like *cough JEREMY cough* just prove that to me... no one can like me for me... no one... and the only person that iv really been able to like and still keep a steady friendship with is chris... im really good friends with him even though iv liked him for... o lets see... over a YEAR now... and most of the time that iv liked him hez been *taken*... either by devan or candi... and then the only time that he was just like chillin by himself i was with jeremy so the oprotunity just slipped away... the story of my life...
got a new cell phone... so if you need to call my cell you can... even though i know you wont... cause i have no friends...
got a new cell phone... so if you need to call my cell you can... even though i know you wont... cause i have no friends...