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Oh hello, it's been a while, hasn't it? ._. LJ is now something akin to a dumping ground for things that I cannot contain on twitter, waheyyy~
So, here we go:
It's a very peculiar feeling to want something so bad that you can get a physical ache from it.
I don't even know why this is so important to me and perhaps, in the long run this might even be more destructive than constructive in any way, but the dream of making it to Japan, of living there, of knowing the language down to it's smallest intricacies is something I just want to badly that it's ridiculous. Reading blogs about life in Japan from a gaijin point of view, watching vlogs, even seeing tweets in Japanese just gives me this strange pang of want, for the lack of a better word.
On one hand, I know it's good to have such an intense driving force and I hope that it doesn't go away for a long time (or ever goes away, for that matter) but on the other, it also feels like I'm building up this idealistic view of Japan? And I'm not sure how that's going to affect me, or is affecting me at the moment. Also, what happens if I do make it there somehow and...then what?
tl;dr watch this video and replace the word cats with Japan.
That aside, some updates about my life because I'm procrastinating about studying Chinese (!! THIS MOTHERFUCKING LANGUAGE) and I just feel like talking lol what have a recap of my life so far:
- ohai I'm in Melbourne, Australia now and have been for the past 6...7...maybe 8 weeks? idek, time is relative here sometimes.
- I'm doing a Ba of Arts (Global) at Monash University out at Clayton which is also known as the butthole of the world. The nearest source of food other than the fridge and Campus Center is McD, which is a 20minute walk away. I wish I was kidding, but I never kid about food. Also, the Clayton campus is fuckin' enormous. Staying on campus isn't that bad in the sense that I can wake up just before class and make it there on time, but jeebus, middle of nowhere doesn't even cut it. :(
- So right now I'm majoring in International Studies and Japanese? No language units this semester though, because of some business with me having taken JLPT4 back in Malaysia ages and ages ago so I've got to wait till next sem for my unit to come on? But basically I'm saying screw you to that and trying to cram over the mid year holidays so I can jump to Intermediate 2 instead of Introduction 2. That's some crazyass shit, yo.
- Currently taking Contemporary Japan (basically...contemporary Japan lol eg. families in Japan, education in Japan, political system etc.), Understanding Asia 1: Foundations (ancient Asian history lol what is this I don't even...), Contemporary Worlds (modern, post WW2 world history) and...
Chinese Introductory 1
Fuck my life >:/ Started off with Introduction to Literature first, even bought the required readings and all but my useless self couldn't handle the amount of reading (cramming Hamlet in a few days wtf) so I chickened out and toyed with the idea of Korean Intro 1 before my dad was all "NO YOU TAKE THE CHINESE OR YOU DISGRACE FAMIRIIII". Or something to that extent.
(actually tbqh it was more along the lines of "Jo you know how useful Chinese is these days you should really learn it why Korean why it's better to take Chinese you're Chinese after all etc etc business etc useful etc Chinese)
- Also, on top of that, am juggling applications to go on a year long exchange to Japan in 2013 /o/ idek, I probably shouldn't be this stressed about it, but I really am ;A; Studying abroad is actually a requirement in the degree I'm doing so I guess Monash will try to place me somewhere? In any case, applications are apparently incredibly competitive and the absolute lowest requirement is an overall score of 60% so...yeah idek. University is so different from college and secondary so I don't even know how my standing is rn, what with so few assignments having been done (ARTS STUDENT FISTBUMP YEAHHH)
- I only have 12.5 contact hours a week and I only show up for like, 9 out of that? Since I can listen to lectures online and all that jazz. Heh. 99% of Arts students are white though so...yeah. That. What I mean to say is I'm #foreveralone and have no friends because mostly everyone here moved up together from high school? Also, I kinda love it when people ask me what I'm doing in uni and I can bullshit my way through by going "Ah, nanotechnology" and they believe me because I'm Asian. :DD
Then I tell them I'm in Arts and they get this cool story, bro face trololol
- and my exam timetable just came out. I want to punch a puppy in the face. That is all. :(
Caulfied is a 30min bus/trainride away from where I am but that's the thing I'm pissed about. What makes me want to commit homicide is the amount of time between the papers omg ;____; /goes to wallow
- vaguely uni related hng I joined kendo? I love it so much, it's digusting <3 2 hour trainings twice a week and kendo camp coming up in early May, so excited for that aksjdnak AHHH
- Uni talk aside, if you've been following me on twitter, you would know that I've fallen back into my insane otaku phase and just...EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH:
Zetman- streetkid turned superhuman whose job is to kill uh, monsters. Homoerotic subtext in relationship between said kid and childhood friend who is also, conveniently, going down the superhero path. Primarily a shounen anime so the art style might not be everyone's cup of tea
Sakamichi no Apollon- new, nerdy kid goes to school, becomes friends with resident delinquent and class head, learns about jazz from there. Gorgeous art, music and you can ship nerd!kid/delinquent from the first 10min. I REC THIS SO BAD I CANNOT EVEN IT'S SO AMAZING AHHHH
Kuroko no Basuke- Think Prince of Tennis with basketball and without the Dragonball moves. Pretty gay. It's awesome, and Kuroko is honestly one of my favorite leads ;A; Linking the OP since it showcases the animation way better than the preview.
...
Also.
I watched No.6 over one of the weekends. 12 episodes in a day. It was awful. And by awful I mean I spent the hours after that rocking back and forth in a corner sobbing and saying things like BUT WHY and all I want to do these days is write No.6 fic and I even made a ff.net account for that. And bought the artbook. And I still cry when I think about the anime. And everyone should watch it. ;______; Excuse me I need a moment with my feelings rn.
;______________________;
WHAT ARE MY FEELINGS DOING I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE I CANNOT AJSDK
And I finished Durarara!! which I loved enough to try cosplaying as Izaya trolololol that was...interesting, to say the least. Blew about $85 in total for the whole outfit, butchered the wig a little because it came too long so I went to Supanova as female!Izaya. Boo. Speaking of Supanova, that was my first convention ever and it was pretty awesome negl, the amount of money I spent is a bit stupid but urgh worth it~ CANNOT. WAIT. FOR. MANIFEST.
Because I can, this is the first ED from Durarara!! and words cannot describe how many times I've listened to it akdjsna ;__; SO GOOD. MATSUSHITA YUYA.
and uhm that about wraps up my post this time around idek I shouldn't even say anything about posting here more often because clearly, I suck really badly at that so yay come catch me on tumblr / twitter / facebook instead because I'm there all day, err'day~
♥
So, here we go:
It's a very peculiar feeling to want something so bad that you can get a physical ache from it.
I don't even know why this is so important to me and perhaps, in the long run this might even be more destructive than constructive in any way, but the dream of making it to Japan, of living there, of knowing the language down to it's smallest intricacies is something I just want to badly that it's ridiculous. Reading blogs about life in Japan from a gaijin point of view, watching vlogs, even seeing tweets in Japanese just gives me this strange pang of want, for the lack of a better word.
On one hand, I know it's good to have such an intense driving force and I hope that it doesn't go away for a long time (or ever goes away, for that matter) but on the other, it also feels like I'm building up this idealistic view of Japan? And I'm not sure how that's going to affect me, or is affecting me at the moment. Also, what happens if I do make it there somehow and...then what?
tl;dr watch this video and replace the word cats with Japan.
Click to viewThat aside, some updates about my life because I'm procrastinating about studying Chinese (!! THIS MOTHERFUCKING LANGUAGE) and I just feel like talking lol what have a recap of my life so far:
- ohai I'm in Melbourne, Australia now and have been for the past 6...7...maybe 8 weeks? idek, time is relative here sometimes.
- I'm doing a Ba of Arts (Global) at Monash University out at Clayton which is also known as the butthole of the world. The nearest source of food other than the fridge and Campus Center is McD, which is a 20minute walk away. I wish I was kidding, but I never kid about food. Also, the Clayton campus is fuckin' enormous. Staying on campus isn't that bad in the sense that I can wake up just before class and make it there on time, but jeebus, middle of nowhere doesn't even cut it. :(
- So right now I'm majoring in International Studies and Japanese? No language units this semester though, because of some business with me having taken JLPT4 back in Malaysia ages and ages ago so I've got to wait till next sem for my unit to come on? But basically I'm saying screw you to that and trying to cram over the mid year holidays so I can jump to Intermediate 2 instead of Introduction 2. That's some crazyass shit, yo.
- Currently taking Contemporary Japan (basically...contemporary Japan lol eg. families in Japan, education in Japan, political system etc.), Understanding Asia 1: Foundations (ancient Asian history lol what is this I don't even...), Contemporary Worlds (modern, post WW2 world history) and...
Chinese Introductory 1
Fuck my life >:/ Started off with Introduction to Literature first, even bought the required readings and all but my useless self couldn't handle the amount of reading (cramming Hamlet in a few days wtf) so I chickened out and toyed with the idea of Korean Intro 1 before my dad was all "NO YOU TAKE THE CHINESE OR YOU DISGRACE FAMIRIIII". Or something to that extent.
(actually tbqh it was more along the lines of "Jo you know how useful Chinese is these days you should really learn it why Korean why it's better to take Chinese you're Chinese after all etc etc business etc useful etc Chinese)
- Also, on top of that, am juggling applications to go on a year long exchange to Japan in 2013 /o/ idek, I probably shouldn't be this stressed about it, but I really am ;A; Studying abroad is actually a requirement in the degree I'm doing so I guess Monash will try to place me somewhere? In any case, applications are apparently incredibly competitive and the absolute lowest requirement is an overall score of 60% so...yeah idek. University is so different from college and secondary so I don't even know how my standing is rn, what with so few assignments having been done (ARTS STUDENT FISTBUMP YEAHHH)
- I only have 12.5 contact hours a week and I only show up for like, 9 out of that? Since I can listen to lectures online and all that jazz. Heh. 99% of Arts students are white though so...yeah. That. What I mean to say is I'm #foreveralone and have no friends because mostly everyone here moved up together from high school? Also, I kinda love it when people ask me what I'm doing in uni and I can bullshit my way through by going "Ah, nanotechnology" and they believe me because I'm Asian. :DD
Then I tell them I'm in Arts and they get this cool story, bro face trololol
- and my exam timetable just came out. I want to punch a puppy in the face. That is all. :(
Caulfied is a 30min bus/trainride away from where I am but that's the thing I'm pissed about. What makes me want to commit homicide is the amount of time between the papers omg ;____; /goes to wallow
- vaguely uni related hng I joined kendo? I love it so much, it's digusting <3 2 hour trainings twice a week and kendo camp coming up in early May, so excited for that aksjdnak AHHH
- Uni talk aside, if you've been following me on twitter, you would know that I've fallen back into my insane otaku phase and just...EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH:
Zetman- streetkid turned superhuman whose job is to kill uh, monsters. Homoerotic subtext in relationship between said kid and childhood friend who is also, conveniently, going down the superhero path. Primarily a shounen anime so the art style might not be everyone's cup of tea
Sakamichi no Apollon- new, nerdy kid goes to school, becomes friends with resident delinquent and class head, learns about jazz from there. Gorgeous art, music and you can ship nerd!kid/delinquent from the first 10min. I REC THIS SO BAD I CANNOT EVEN IT'S SO AMAZING AHHHH
Kuroko no Basuke- Think Prince of Tennis with basketball and without the Dragonball moves. Pretty gay. It's awesome, and Kuroko is honestly one of my favorite leads ;A; Linking the OP since it showcases the animation way better than the preview.
...
Also.
I watched No.6 over one of the weekends. 12 episodes in a day. It was awful. And by awful I mean I spent the hours after that rocking back and forth in a corner sobbing and saying things like BUT WHY and all I want to do these days is write No.6 fic and I even made a ff.net account for that. And bought the artbook. And I still cry when I think about the anime. And everyone should watch it. ;______; Excuse me I need a moment with my feelings rn.
;______________________;
WHAT ARE MY FEELINGS DOING I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE I CANNOT AJSDK
And I finished Durarara!! which I loved enough to try cosplaying as Izaya trolololol that was...interesting, to say the least. Blew about $85 in total for the whole outfit, butchered the wig a little because it came too long so I went to Supanova as female!Izaya. Boo. Speaking of Supanova, that was my first convention ever and it was pretty awesome negl, the amount of money I spent is a bit stupid but urgh worth it~ CANNOT. WAIT. FOR. MANIFEST.
Because I can, this is the first ED from Durarara!! and words cannot describe how many times I've listened to it akdjsna ;__; SO GOOD. MATSUSHITA YUYA.
and uhm that about wraps up my post this time around idek I shouldn't even say anything about posting here more often because clearly, I suck really badly at that so yay come catch me on tumblr / twitter / facebook instead because I'm there all day, err'day~
♥