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My life is getting to be such a mess. It's certainly my own fault for letting it, but I don't seem to be able to do otherwise. Nothing seems important. Living is just going through the motions.
I feel like I've been skipping a lot of classes, but it makes no difference for most of them except in attendance record- I go, I sit and stare and take down notes without even knowing what they say. I cry quietly and despairingly to myself on the train where no one will ask me to talk about it.
As for studying, not only do I not have any will to do well, I barely even have the motivation to get assignments in at all. Instead of working I lie on my bed and stare at the roof. The one thing I am motivated to do is something that keeps taking all my sparse will prevent. I don't want to be the person who does that anymore.
But I miss her so much its utterly unbearable.
I feel like I've been skipping a lot of classes, but it makes no difference for most of them except in attendance record- I go, I sit and stare and take down notes without even knowing what they say. I cry quietly and despairingly to myself on the train where no one will ask me to talk about it.
As for studying, not only do I not have any will to do well, I barely even have the motivation to get assignments in at all. Instead of working I lie on my bed and stare at the roof. The one thing I am motivated to do is something that keeps taking all my sparse will prevent. I don't want to be the person who does that anymore.
But I miss her so much its utterly unbearable.