Depressed and out of it
So i quit my job yesterday.....well actually I did the pussy way and put in 2 weeks notice.....but suprisingly enough I'm quite depressed about it. Well, ok, lets go back...The depression stems from a little bit more
On thursday night I went up to state college to drink with my girlfriends. OF COURSE WE GOT WASTED! In my drunken stupor I called mark (of course) and well what do ya know A GIRL ANSWERED. Talk about feeling shitty. Didn't really care too much afterwards because I pretty much have no shame, but at this point I knew I really really really cannot face him anymore.... Sooooooo I quit my job. I feel kinda good that it's done, but now I'm going to be unemployed and a lazy pathetic piece of shit. I mean I really should be over him by now and obviously I'm not, but maybe if I don't drink so much for awhile and get into the swing of things at my new job everything will be ok and get better. It's so weird too because everyone keeps asking me why I'm quitting. I am such a bad liar and I make up all these stupid things to say. It's sad because I really like all the people that work there and I would love to stay, but I will never get over him if I don't leave. It's kind of weird but I feel like I never had to break up with mark, I've had to break up with my job.