I'll ride this one out alone.
I just let it all fall apart and for something that wasn't supposed to be, it sure felt alright.
And I read a letter today.
A letter I should have burnt, nuked, destroyed. It shouldn't still be out there. And in all places the back seat of a "fillers'' car.
And a heartsick filler, because he knows theres only a one road street to take to get to my heart. And his car doesn't fit down it.
It wasn't meant to be read today. And you weren't meant to respond.
It was old dirt, buried. And almost forgotten.
But I am still the mother of your daughter, and you are still the one that was there through it all.
Everytime I have been hurt the most- you were there holding me. For some reason it was always you.
But surprisingly the letter didn't hurt me as much as I could have. I think it was read when it was meant to be read.
Well maybe not that exact moment. But Either way. I think that was slightly okay.
Its just the timing. Of everything.
The days have been blending.. And my tears havn't been coming. And I know its just because the timing is off.
I know im not supposed to act this way. Things got to real, I couldn't stay.
I know one day we will both feel good. If I could be with you, you know I would.
I don't wanna cry for you. Theres nothing left to do. If it could make me feel better.
Theres nothing left to lose. I turn the lights down low and close the door.
And try to feel the way I felt before. Hell cry in the middle of the day, if it will make me feel a better way.
If it could take my pain away.
Oooh. If it could make me feel better.
Stop before you fall into the hole that I have dug here.
Rest even as you are starting to feel the way I used too.
I don't need a better thing just to sound confused. Don't take about everyone- I am not amused. By you.
Cuz im gonna lose ya.
Yes im going to lose you.
If im going to lose you.
I'll lose you now for good.
I've got to pay attention to the signs ahead of me.
And not take the fall when they finally come into focus. Because I knew what they meant all along.
I just chose to turn up the song. And forget about the tension it makes me feel everytime the beat drops.
I dont need a better thing. I'll settle for less.
And that's all I'm really doing, is settling for less.
And I read a letter today.
A letter I should have burnt, nuked, destroyed. It shouldn't still be out there. And in all places the back seat of a "fillers'' car.
And a heartsick filler, because he knows theres only a one road street to take to get to my heart. And his car doesn't fit down it.
It wasn't meant to be read today. And you weren't meant to respond.
It was old dirt, buried. And almost forgotten.
But I am still the mother of your daughter, and you are still the one that was there through it all.
Everytime I have been hurt the most- you were there holding me. For some reason it was always you.
But surprisingly the letter didn't hurt me as much as I could have. I think it was read when it was meant to be read.
Well maybe not that exact moment. But Either way. I think that was slightly okay.
Its just the timing. Of everything.
The days have been blending.. And my tears havn't been coming. And I know its just because the timing is off.
I know im not supposed to act this way. Things got to real, I couldn't stay.
I know one day we will both feel good. If I could be with you, you know I would.
I don't wanna cry for you. Theres nothing left to do. If it could make me feel better.
Theres nothing left to lose. I turn the lights down low and close the door.
And try to feel the way I felt before. Hell cry in the middle of the day, if it will make me feel a better way.
If it could take my pain away.
Oooh. If it could make me feel better.
Stop before you fall into the hole that I have dug here.
Rest even as you are starting to feel the way I used too.
I don't need a better thing just to sound confused. Don't take about everyone- I am not amused. By you.
Cuz im gonna lose ya.
Yes im going to lose you.
If im going to lose you.
I'll lose you now for good.
I've got to pay attention to the signs ahead of me.
And not take the fall when they finally come into focus. Because I knew what they meant all along.
I just chose to turn up the song. And forget about the tension it makes me feel everytime the beat drops.
I dont need a better thing. I'll settle for less.
And that's all I'm really doing, is settling for less.