This is to Konfusion, and how it Kreats, Kissing...
So this is what this feels like..
To not feel empty, to not feel numb anymore.
To be excited in hopes of something good to come.
So this is 16 at 21.
This is 21 going on 22, and not really caring that I havn't accomplished everything I was supposed to.
This week has shown me.. There is more than what they can offer.
There is more than window treatments, and four poster beds.
There is good music, and good memorys.
There is driving around in circles, and wasting gas because were just trying to get to the next stop light.
So we can lean in.
And again... I will stress how interesting this has all been.
To come together like it has.. In such a crazy fitting forming way.
To fall into place like a puzzle that has had missing pieces for years, and you finally just found the middle.
Well I want to be in the middle. For once, I want to find out what has been missing.
And I want it to fit. Struggle even.. I want it to hurt. I want it to feel like fire.
I want it to be amazing, and I want it to be deep.
Because I'm ready. I've been ready.
It won't be empty anymore, I refuse to settle. Settle for anything less than fireworks.
And I saw them.
I keep seeing them.
Everytime you lean in.
So this is what it feels like...
To find this sort of thing.
And to think we almost missed out, we almost missed. What we couldn't have afforded to miss out on.
Can you imagine if we missed that moment?
Can you imagine if I just gave in to company, to being lonely. And not wanting to be alone.
Well now I just don't want to live without.
Not just not wanting to be lonely, but not wanting to live without this.
This which I can't speak of, because I won't jinx it.
I won't breath it in, until you've proved to me I'm not just chasing pavements.
Im not just breathing to breath, but to stay alive.
I feel like im finally living.
My god it hasn't even been a week.
I've been living without this for this long.
How is this possible.
And I've discovered more in this past month or so...
Then I have in this entire past year.
And isn't that amazing, how in just a few moments your life can change forever.
With just a new song, and a new outlook.
I knew something great was going to happen.
I knew God put this in front of me for a reason.
He can teach you the greatest lessons, and show you the greatest fear.
But in the ounce of an incling give you the fondest amazment.
Its my time. Finally.
It's my time. And dear God if I fuck this up-
I can't I just can't.
Hold my hand this time, and walk me towards the right way to go. . .
To not feel empty, to not feel numb anymore.
To be excited in hopes of something good to come.
So this is 16 at 21.
This is 21 going on 22, and not really caring that I havn't accomplished everything I was supposed to.
This week has shown me.. There is more than what they can offer.
There is more than window treatments, and four poster beds.
There is good music, and good memorys.
There is driving around in circles, and wasting gas because were just trying to get to the next stop light.
So we can lean in.
And again... I will stress how interesting this has all been.
To come together like it has.. In such a crazy fitting forming way.
To fall into place like a puzzle that has had missing pieces for years, and you finally just found the middle.
Well I want to be in the middle. For once, I want to find out what has been missing.
And I want it to fit. Struggle even.. I want it to hurt. I want it to feel like fire.
I want it to be amazing, and I want it to be deep.
Because I'm ready. I've been ready.
It won't be empty anymore, I refuse to settle. Settle for anything less than fireworks.
And I saw them.
I keep seeing them.
Everytime you lean in.
So this is what it feels like...
To find this sort of thing.
And to think we almost missed out, we almost missed. What we couldn't have afforded to miss out on.
Can you imagine if we missed that moment?
Can you imagine if I just gave in to company, to being lonely. And not wanting to be alone.
Well now I just don't want to live without.
Not just not wanting to be lonely, but not wanting to live without this.
This which I can't speak of, because I won't jinx it.
I won't breath it in, until you've proved to me I'm not just chasing pavements.
Im not just breathing to breath, but to stay alive.
I feel like im finally living.
My god it hasn't even been a week.
I've been living without this for this long.
How is this possible.
And I've discovered more in this past month or so...
Then I have in this entire past year.
And isn't that amazing, how in just a few moments your life can change forever.
With just a new song, and a new outlook.
I knew something great was going to happen.
I knew God put this in front of me for a reason.
He can teach you the greatest lessons, and show you the greatest fear.
But in the ounce of an incling give you the fondest amazment.
Its my time. Finally.
It's my time. And dear God if I fuck this up-
I can't I just can't.
Hold my hand this time, and walk me towards the right way to go. . .