Depths of patheticness
I've definitely reached new depths of patheticness. It's not like me pinning away for Jay and moping over Chris should totally consume my life, and yet...they do. When Jesse was hitting on meand saying how beautiful I am and asking me out on dates...gently kissing my neck, I cringe at the realization that it's him and not Jay. That it's him and not Chris six months ago when things were perfect.
I swear I have the worst timing known to man.
If only I could get things right for once, it's always all sorts of screwed up. And though I know I have so much else going for me and shouldn't really care about the fact that Jay just moved in with his 'girlfriend'...even though I have no idea why he's with her. It seems like he spends much more time with me anyway, but still. He is with her and I should will move on. God, if only I could figure out a way how.
I really do just want to lay in my bed forever. Just lay there and let the whole world move around me. If I never get out of bed I will never get hurt again. It wouldn't matter. There I would be tucked under my down comforter as all the heartaches and saddness passed me by. I'd be in dreamland, which I can only assume is far better then this harsh reality I live in now.
Blah!
I swear I have the worst timing known to man.
If only I could get things right for once, it's always all sorts of screwed up. And though I know I have so much else going for me and shouldn't really care about the fact that Jay just moved in with his 'girlfriend'...even though I have no idea why he's with her. It seems like he spends much more time with me anyway, but still. He is with her and I should will move on. God, if only I could figure out a way how.
I really do just want to lay in my bed forever. Just lay there and let the whole world move around me. If I never get out of bed I will never get hurt again. It wouldn't matter. There I would be tucked under my down comforter as all the heartaches and saddness passed me by. I'd be in dreamland, which I can only assume is far better then this harsh reality I live in now.
Blah!