An e-mail I decided not to send to Lex.
"Time has its way of saying it's time to move on. So off to my kingdom I go where I feel at home."
Night of acoustics ended about an hour and a half ago and I have been at home for about forty-five minutes now. I do not know why I am writing this I just feel really lonely. Not just in a relationship way, but just in a "I want to talk to someone, but there isn't anyone." I am sorry I ruined your moment. You can never understand how frusterating it is to see a person you had loved so much such a short time ago be so deeply in love with someone else so quickly. I really think I am getting over you and this pleases me, but I am not perfect and it made me upset. I tried to take it out through humor as you saw, and I hope you didn't get too hurt. Regardless, I wish I didn't feel so hopeless right now. Jeez, I really am enjoying us being friendly lately (believe it or not, I care enough about you to like you as a person not just a girlfriend), but it's still difficult, but I think I am doing better. Oh well, I am glad you two are happy and I am happy too, most of the time. This is the worst I have felt in over a week, and I think thats pretty damn good. Oh well, maybe I won't send this shit out afterall. No I don't think I will
-Matty
Night of acoustics ended about an hour and a half ago and I have been at home for about forty-five minutes now. I do not know why I am writing this I just feel really lonely. Not just in a relationship way, but just in a "I want to talk to someone, but there isn't anyone." I am sorry I ruined your moment. You can never understand how frusterating it is to see a person you had loved so much such a short time ago be so deeply in love with someone else so quickly. I really think I am getting over you and this pleases me, but I am not perfect and it made me upset. I tried to take it out through humor as you saw, and I hope you didn't get too hurt. Regardless, I wish I didn't feel so hopeless right now. Jeez, I really am enjoying us being friendly lately (believe it or not, I care enough about you to like you as a person not just a girlfriend), but it's still difficult, but I think I am doing better. Oh well, I am glad you two are happy and I am happy too, most of the time. This is the worst I have felt in over a week, and I think thats pretty damn good. Oh well, maybe I won't send this shit out afterall. No I don't think I will
-Matty