While I have a moment
Another difficult day. I feel emotionally weak. Rough with the girls. I mean its not their fault. Its just hard when I have them both crying at the same time and I have to choose which one to let keep crying to tend to the other. By the end of it all they are both crying because the other is crying and I just want to cry with them. I have had zero energy to be mobile today. I need to not forget to take my medicine. I even have one of those pill organizers to organize the pills I need to take each day; vitamins and what not. Yet, I can't seem to remember to take them even when they are nicely organized right in front of my face. Probly because I really don't want to take them. UGH. I need to focus on the highlights of the day: Updated pics to facebook of the girls for family to see and posted a video of Brenna laughing (rare) to their youtube channel. I just need to cry.... or better yet curl up under my covers and watch Benny and Joon. I love that movie. I wonder if I even still have it in my Johnny Depp collection. I hope I do. I want to withdraw from everyone. I don't feel like talking. I want the silence I have taken for granted. Then again when I finally get silence all I want to hear are my girls. I love them so much. I guess while they are both content I should make dinner instead of writing in here. I have so much going on in my head. I will probly write more later. For now, its time to make tacos.