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[bluntlove]

haha i knew it would happen this way. hes been here forever and right when he has to leave its like it hits me just how much i really care for him. oh goodness. i feel like a dumbshit. theres absoutley nothing i can do about it now, especially since we've already talked about what happens when he goes to college. ahh this sucks. i wish i could like tell him and convince him to think other wise so we could like stay where we are right now but i know that will never happen. haha i cannot believe i didnt see this coming. hes been there since day one and been through every single one of my dumbass ex boyfriends and every single time i went through dumb drama with people he was there to always catch my fall, despite the numerous and i mean numerous fights with got in we always came back to eachother and apolgized. its funny how i need this the most in my life right now and its slipping away right through my finger tips and i have to just watch it go. oh my goodness shoot me please. haha
i love him so much
♥

p.s i have the greatest friends ever